... my life this school year has been entirely uninteresting and thus boring.

Obviously, I should spice it up a little next quarter.

But how does we do this, precious? It's not like I have people I hang around here or something. But I guess I could get a job. Or try to anyway. That could change things up or--OOOOH, I know what I can do. I can take walks and hit up the Frothy Monkey and take my laptop with me. And do my school work for once. As well as RP.

I dunno. I need to change things up a little or else I will go stir crazy this next quarter. But maybe not. If I get those classes I want... should be interesting.

And I definitely need to change up my RP line-up. Or, uh. Not change it up so much as toss out my other three more (Prussia stop being a damn conquering nation and let the others have their fu--... that gives me the idea of playercesting. ... I should do that, actually. Could get me a feel for my characters again. IF YOU HAVE SUGGESTIONS FOR A SCENARIO TO ENABLE THIS, SPEAK NOW).

But yeah. I dunno. I guess it's because my sister is finally getting out of her depressed state and while I've gotten out of my depressed state months ago, I'm still very :| about things right now and... need a change.

... when I get money again, the first thing I'm doing is lopping off my hair. It's getting too long and annoying and all I ever do is wear it up. Maybe I could try something new with it? Also shorter hair with glasses. That'll be something I haven't seen in a few years.

I don't know. I kind of miss things being hectic like they were when I had a job. Not those times where I nearly died--though those were kind of awesome in their own retarded way--and definitely not the times... after last winter but just something needs to come along and spice things up.

My little sister didn't get how I could not be all excited about stuff that she does and I go, "... yeah, did that two years ago," until just recently, actually. Yeah. I'm burnt out at this place. Need some place new and different but ONE MORE YEAR LEFT.

And hey, if I stay with my folks this summer, I'll have a whole town to mess around in--along with acres and acres of farmland to explore. And I could probably get a job at the Hastings there. Uhuhu.

... idk, I needed to babble. But definitely going to start with the changing my schedule and behavior with cutting my hair when I have money again.

Which I'll have when I sale my Chemistry book :|
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I will be the happiest person in the world if things go well in regards to what's going on tomorrow. Just because of the awesome people that I've been hanging around lately and the chaotic fun that we've been having. Yeah, I wonder if I come across as over-the-top or excessive around them, but then I realize that that's okay. I'm just being me, really. Well... partly.

And I got to see some truly bittersweet things as well. Like... here, have a story told in songs:





Just a truly sad story but also so beautiful.

And now my leg's falling asleep.

Think I'm gonna head back to my dorm and get in a shower and throw all my stuff into one place so it'll make it easier to meet my mom tomorrow afternoon. Yeah I'm saying this because I will be leaving to visit my parents for the Christmas holidays. Dunno when I'll have internet access again but...

I might also write stuff. Who knows? I feel inspired enough right now.
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So. Because I am a brilliant person, I end up leaving my school ID (also the only means to get food from the caf) at the bookstore this Friday and didn't notice until Saturday.

This means that I went the whole weekend surviving on two or three things of ramen.

... yey.

Also, I smartly decided to watch cooking shows Sunday night. Emeril, some American Iron Chef, some other Food Network show...

Needless to say that I was (still am, actually, gonna go eat here shortly) hungry. And had nothing to eat and no money to get food. ;o;

Luckily, I recovered my ID this morning and got a quick snack before going into my French class with DeMattos fully prepared! I read Madame de Staël's biography as well as François-René de Chateaubriand's biography and Le Mal du siècle, which is an excerpt from his work René (which I just read a summary of on wikipedia and wtf that ending).

Read all of that and we didn't even touch on any of these things in class today DX

Oh, well. I'm pretty prepared for when we do go over them in class. STAYING ONE STEP AHEAD, BOHAHAHAHA!

Also, I have 2 articles I have to read and then present to my class, so people on my flist who have knowledge of French: aidez-moi, s'il vous plaît? I'll probably write a post on them whenever I get around to them.

Also, am out of hermit more, sort of. I'm feeling kind of detached from the internet and, in relation, RPing. So... I think it'll get better once I get everything all balanced out. I seem to go through phases on this. It'll pass~ It'll pass~

And now for a meme!

Your Spiritual Number is Five

You bring adventure and change to people's lives. You are willing to challenge your friends and push them to grow. Right now, your life is about figuring out where to direct your energy. If you're not careful, you can become too unreliable or flighty. You need the perfect project. You live a free form life - which allows you to be very innovative and a great problem solver. Rules, schedules, and structure practically destroy you. You have to do things your own way.

... eeeeeeeeeeeh.


EDIT: Corndog, fries, chicken creole, and a salad later, I feel more alive. Not full, really, but no feasts after a famine and all that.
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So.

Interesting day. Just gonna say that I'm not going to be doing the staying up all night thing because I'm scared I'll oversleep and miss my early-morning classes again.

Reason being is that I now have an alarm clock.

That hopefully works. I just bought it but LOLZ.

So yeah, uh. Went down the list of things I could use for an alarm last night with a few people in chan. Short of it is, my cellphone is dead and charger is two hours away, I have no computer, I don't really have any friends that would wake me up (shhhhh, Sara. the phone's dead, remember?), and my DS is... somewhere. In my room. And I have no idea where.

So ahahaha. Orz. Yeah. Can has alarm clock. Hopefully won't be pulling this kind of thing anymore.

IN OTHER NEWS, I love having retarded songs stuck in my head. It's just kind of funny.

Insert whining about lack of inspiration here.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaand... I think that's it.

WARNING: I MAY OR MAY NOT BE PULLING A HERMIT MODE THING THIS WEEKEND. MOSTLY BECAUSE I NEED TO READ A LOT OF FRENCH AND ALSO BECAUSE I WANT TO STUDY UP ON TWO LANGUAGES I'VE STARTED BUT HAVEN'T REALLY GOTTEN ANYWHERE WITH YET. This is entirely relevant to that one post where I mentioned picking up a fourth... sorta. We'll see how it goes, in any case.

Aaaand that's the long and short of it for the time being.

... I feel like such an awesome dork when I use Prussia icons.


ETA: THEWHATILIKEABOUTYOUMEME ✖ my thread
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I ended up falling asleep a bit within the last half hour of my English class. Not that it matters much since we were just talking about Virgil's work and the story of how Rome was founded and my professor has a tendency to go on tangents anyway.

But yeah. Still drowsy from that.

I think I'm getting my motivation and interest in my subjects back again. I dunno why but for the past couple of weeks I just haven't been able to focus, I've been missing some classes because of idiotic things like oversleeping and the like... and well, now I'm buckling down again and such.

And I find myself tired. A good kind of tired, though, I guess.

But you know, a point of interest I have at the moment is the history of Empires or maybe I should say the men who led them on to greatness?

For example, in the western world back in the day, there was Alexander the Great, Augustus Caesar, and Charlemagne. I know for sure they're three great figures in history considering Alexander conquered everything from Greece to India (in less than ten years, isn't that right?), Augustus expanded the Roman empire and had such influence, and Charlemagne expanded the French territory and established the French royalty, I guess you can say?

Except when I think about all of this, in terms of western world conquerors and such (because back in those times, Europe was The World, as silly as that seems now), there's a huge gap in my thinking (which I blame on being half-asleep or something, really), between Charlemagne and Napoleon. And then again between Napoleon and Hitler, but that's more because of the fact that during that time period was when nations were all about national identity and making their own empires around the globe.

... I dunno, I just find this kind of thing interesting. I wish I knew more about eastern world history because I feel sorely deprived and missing more than a few moments in history I should know about.

But things like how western civilization has seen the rise and fall of several different empires, each one taking from the other (Egypt -> Greece -> Rome -> France -> England -> US? [hey, people have compared us to Rome right before the time of its fall]), has always been of an interest to me. Same way how lines of mentors and students like with Socrates, Plato, Aristotle, and Alexander the Great have always been a point of interest to me.

I dunno.

Hey, guys who have an interest in history, care to help me fill in the gaps? I might be doing some research of my own if only to satisfy my curiosity on the matter.


ETA: ... now I'm wondering why exactly I have an interest in people in history who've attempted to conquere the world.

And why the hell did Hitler go after Russia when it failed miserably when Napoleon tried it anyway? Not only that, but he had already been fighting a battle on at least two or three fronts. So why turn and run and try to take Russia out? I still never get that in WWII history. Had to be the stupidest mistake he could have made.

Though I guess you could look back at those ancient emperors and kings and say the same for them if you can find the moments where they royally screwed up but haa... most of those empires and kingdoms remained strong for generations--until you had characters like Nero in Rome. Or even Louis XV in France--seriously, how the hell did you get a genius like Louis XIV one generation, a frivolous king like Louis XV who wasted money on social events and such the next, and then end that line with Louis XVI who... just wasn't meant to be a leader in that respect (and let's face it, thanks to his predecessor and the depression at the time, he didn't really stand a chance)?

Though I guess if you look throughout history you'll see something like that. How one generation was strong enough to keep everything together but then it all falls apart in the next. Like with Alfred the Great and how he was able to at least begin to unify the English people and established the burgs and such and was able to keep things together but when he was gone, his sons couldn't keep up with it. Actually the same happened for Charlemagne, didn't it? Because France ended up getting split into three and then the sons squabbled over who got what and then two of them conspired against the third and...

... why do I have a fascination with this sort of thing. No. Really. I really wonder why.
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The following convo shows my mood atm (note: I r Azuma):

[Azuma] s'abonner a mes services ce soir, Kuroyan :D
[Basara] why are you pimping yourself out

|D

Yes, I am feeling very up this evening. Proooobably because good things have been happening or something. Maybe it's because I've actually had two decent meals today. Though... breakfast was kind of dinner for me, considering I stayed up till around 8 or 9AM.

Good thing is though that I set my alarm to 1PM so that if I wanted more sleep, I could just reset my clock to another hour. And I told myself I wasn't allowed to wake up past 4PM because I had stuff to do before my French class at 5PM.

Well, whatd'ya know. It worked. I was awake by 3:30PM, took a shower, worked on that assignment that needed working on before French, and then there was French class in which I was able to pronounce things a hell of a lot better than I used to and just kgajflkfd loooove.

Also, I'm able to help my oldest sister get herself a car. Of course this means I'll be short $240 until the 22nd, but that's totally cool because big sister getting a car \o

I still find it amusing how the economy is falling down around us and yet my family seems to doing better than ever. Here's to hoping we're not going to get kicked in the balls for it because, man, we so deserve this after those bad years.

In other news, I got to eat beef for dinner tonight! Om nom nom. The Caf had beef and I wanted so bad because I haven't had red meat in like forever. So mashed potatoes + gravy + green peas + beef + two slices of cheese pizza.

... I r totally healthy, yo.

But yeah. On top of all of that, my sore throat issue is virtually gone. And I was right that it was a nasal drainage thing because now my nose is slightly stuffed. Oh jeez whiz. Why didn't I notice this sooner?

So yeah. Am happy, am hyper, am also a little drowsy but we all know I end up becoming wired around 10PM or some crazy hour, but I also have me some Tylenol PM that I can take whenever I go back to my dorm if I can't fall asleep.

Ah... ups are so much better than downs~
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My phobia with swallowing pills is slowly going away!

Mostly because one of the prescriptions that I got for when my throat was all torn up were these ITTY BITTY TEENSY TINY tablets which I was able to swallow whole!

And last night, I had trouble getting to sleep and my head hurt a bit, so I got my aspirin and WAS ABLE TO SWALLOW THEM WITHOUT ANY TROUBLE FOR THE MOST PART.

...

Sob.

I am ridiculously proud of myself, you have NO idea. I usually chew up those aspirin tablets. soooob.
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Also, icon is because I adore pirate!UK from Hetalia.

First of all, I just want to say that I'll probably be putting off the getting of a new computer until winter quarter--mostly because I currently have around $659 in the bank (don't ask me where the money went--school books, supplies, and food mostly) and at least $300 of that belongs to sannask and horatio09, who can email me anytime with the mailing address I should be sending it off.

What I can do with the other $350, besides getting a new computer, is get clothes.

If you guys looked at my wardrobe, you'd probably ship me off to What Not To Wear or something. I know my family's threatened to do it more than once. Mostly jokingly, of course.

But I seriously only have t-shirts and jeans for the most part. Sure, I have khaki pants for marching band--ditto for khaki shorts--and black dress pants that I bought because they were the only things I could use for working at IHOP at the time (and they still look real nice, too). But beyond that... not much else. And only like 3 or 4 blue jeans--one of which is missing a button and the others, well, I know one's a capris and another is my baggy "do whatever while wearing them" jeans...

Not only that, but I need winter clothes. Because I have none! Except for a Dork sweatshirt lwyn got me a couple of years ago (I still adore it ;;b), a Louisiana Tech pull-over, and my old high school letterman, I have no real warm long-sleeved clothes! Luckily, I do have two scarves, so I don't have to worry so much about that. ... and I think I left the gloves maikan got me years ago at my sister's house at some point. Hmmm.

So yeah. Clothing would be A+++ atm. Moreso than a new computer, seeing as how I have internet access thanks to the computer labs and all.

Beyond clothes... new bedding would be nice. The set I have now is over three years old, poor things. And my mom got me a nice down comforter for my bday so... new bedding would be nice, yes.

... I have no clue what else besides those things that I really need right now. Especially with $350 to work with. But meh. We'll see. I'll probably pester my little sister to go shopping with me since she's got more of a sense of fashion than I do. Though I will maintain that I look godawful in most clothes.

Probably will save up the rest for whatever I may need it for because, yeah.

In other news, my hands are freezing cold because, even though it's getting cooler outside every day, Louisianaians apparently still insist on having the AC at 60 or below. Which I find really retarded. At least have it 70 or above, guys. Srsly.

And beyond all of that, I need to call my sister Shorty and see what her plans for Thanksgiving is. Because if she's staying home, then Foon/Shiz and I could just go down there for Thanksgiving, seeing as we have a football game the weekend of and aren't supposed to leave school because of it or something, I dunno, it's too early to think about it. But basically, won't be able to see the folks until Christmas because of their move. Which... is kind of different. Never had a Thanksgiving without the whole family around--or at least not without parents. We sometimes didn't have B or Shorty but that's because they were busy elsewhere, so it's understandable.

... I'm really still kind of sleepy so things that might not be making sense might be escaping me. I think I'll end the post here, then.
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First thing I see on my flist is that Paul Newman's dead.

... sad in the faise man.

I need to get a copy of Cool Hand Luke to watch now. :<

In other news, I am doing my part in being a little more delinquent than I usually am (shhhhh pretend I'm not 21). Small social gathering later tonight which will involve alcohol. So. Yeah. Don't worry, I promise that I will not be a wild child (as if I could. ah hah~). But so you guys know why the hell I won't be on the interwebs at night like I have been for the past... week.

Beyond that, Lean Cuisine's chicken chow mein is actually pretty good. I was really surprised. *isn't much for TV dinners*

And uh...

I really have nothing to talk about. I love everything right now except for the fact that Paul Newman's dead. Baaaaaaaaaaw.
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Maybe I should worry about my insomnia going out of control but ahahaha... I'm actually not too worried about it. Which... isn't a good sign probably. Orz.

In other news, I have I Think I Love You stuck in my head. I blame this youtube music video. Damn shippy videos. :<

So uh. If you have the song, FEEL FREE TO SHARE. NORLY.

I think I love you
So what am I afraid of?
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of
A love there is no cure for~

I think I love you
Isn't that what life is made of?
Though it worries me to say
That I've never felt this way~

... baaaaaaaw. It's stuck in my heeeeeeeead.

And that, ladies and gentleman is my random nightly post. I dunno when I'll be to bed but meh. Thankfully I only have Art Appreciation at 9:30. SO. If I want I can stay up until that's over, go to my dorm, sleep all day and... stuff. Huzzah weekend with no football games~

Anyway back to my doing... whatever it is I do late at night in computer labs.



ETA: IT OCCURS TO ME THAT MAYBE I GET THIS SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD SO EASILY BECAUSE OF AN ISSUE I HAVE WITH A GUY I KEEP RUNNING INTO AND NO IT'S NOT THE ONE THAT HAS HIS OWN TAG ON MY LJ "that_smile" IT'S A TOTALLY DIFFERENT ONE AND JHFSEDHFJDSG. WRRRRRRRY.

ETA the 2nd: It now occurs to me that I fail at life because I end up liking the guys that are emotionally unavailable. ... or I think they are at least. Sob. I need to make a post about this eventually.
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In the past two days, I've gotten about three requests to help people on their French. Yeah, they were pretty simple matters (and actually one of them I was just about as confused as the other person but we managed to work something out) but it kind of makes me feel better. Like I'm actually learning and I'm getting real good at what I want to do. It only took, what? Four years? Gg, me.

Not only that but I completely aced that test today in French. Memorizing the phonetic alphabet isn't too hard, actually! And it all really depends on the letters used and the sounds they make usually. I mean, sure. I got the phonetic symbols for words like "dernier" wrong but over all, I'm not doing so bad!

And really, this phonetics and pronunciation course is helping me loads. It's really building my self confidence up better than any other course has. Because a lot of my insecurities with languages has always been if I'm saying it right and with my knowing the phonetics better, I'm able to sound out the words better--in my head and aloud. Because French is full of those goddamn silent letters and all. At least in Spanish and Japanese, what you see is what you get basically (except when it comes to kanji, sure), and just.

I'm feeling kind of proud of myself. I'm kind of scared to feel this way because things tend to go downhill if I get too confident in myself--superiority complex in the making, I swear this is why I have an inferiority complex, to balance things out.

But yeah. Things like this make me think it might actually be possible to get an apprenticeship or internship somewhere. And if not either of those, then at least a scholarship to study abroad. Especially since I'm not as willing to half-ass last-minutely do things.

I dunno. This year has been way better than last year so far. I'm just hoping it'll stay that way.

And yeah, putting this out here, but I love you guys for putting up with my self-pity parties. I know it seems like I whine continuously but really, my self-esteem has gotten a lot better.

In fact, today I got other shit that needed to get done done. Apparently the dentist I went to when staying with sannask and horatio09 this summer is sending me a bill. Why? I already paid my bill, right? Uh, no. My dad's insurance company/job people's are being asshats again and insisting that I'm not a full-time student. (With 13 hours, I'd better damn well be considered a full-time student.) So my sister and I went and took care of that around 4PM today. Then I went upstairs in Keeny Hall to get an appointment with my counselor (since I missed my first one because lol surpraise band rehearsal at 4 instead of 4:30).

October 6th, I have an appointment at 11AM. Early, but why the hell not? I have Art Appreciation around that time anyway.

And yeah. I should've called the HP people and get the buying-a-new-laptop thing out of the way today but I didn't get around to it. So tomorrow, I'm going to be trying to get on that. And once everything involving the computer gets squared away, I can probably use the rest of the money to buy winter clothes and new shoes (because I have nothing but old (and by old, I mean over a year old and completely worn out) tennis shoes and one pair of Mudds that, while fitting and comfy and such, is already kind of falling apart when my older sister Shorty bought them for me for my bday, wtf) and maybe things like an iPod and a new digital camera. I am sort of lacking in the hi-tech department, anyway.

Not counting the money that I need to send to Sanna and Joe, I have around $500 in my bank. Now, I dunno how the computer people want to do things--a downpayment of some-odd amount and then the monthly installments pay or what--but hopefully it won't be more than $300 there. And then the $200 can be used for whatever. Or something. I dunno.

Aaah... this is the first time in a week I've been on the up and up in my mood. And last time, it had probably been months since I was that happy and relax and with-it about things. Just... I have no clue why the positive attitude but it feels nice. At least better than late Saturday night when I was talking with my friend Miguel who... I love him like a bro but I probably shouldn't have told him a lot of the things I did.

I dunno. I've been needing to open up to more people here since the only two people who know me as well as I know myself pretty much, IRL, are gone and I can't interact with them in person anymore. That's part of the reason I got kind of depressed this past week actually. The whole going stir-crazy and no one to talk about it with or anything because that would mean admitting I'm a different kind of person than I like to pretend I am. ... which is probably why I come across as a tight-ass a lot.

Meh. I'll work it out. Talking with Miguel was a step in the right direction, hopefully. I dunno if I can trust myself to do it with anyone else any time soon but at least I know someone's sort of got my back... even though I haven't talked with him since that night really. But Miguel's always kind of had my back. Especially sophomore year when I was stressing about my solos in Wind Ensemble. God, I nearly cried at him so many times, it's not even funny.

But yeah. One step at a time. Building up my esteem and working harder on my languages... actually reading my assignments--which I haven't really done but I need to read Bede for English History because we have a discussion tomorrow that is worth a lot of grade points and even if I'm good at BSing that sort of thing, I actually do want to know what the hell they're talking about. These kinds of things that I've been kind of ignoring for the past... well... since before high-school really. Man, I do love it when I'm actually interested in my subjects rather than suffering through them like I did in Sociology and Chemistry (which would be why I made a D in one and failed the other).

... I'm surprisingly in a good place right now, but I know some other people on my flist aren't and. Well. If I could send out waves of positive feelings, I really would. Love to you guys. You have no idea how much.

And I think that's all for now. Someone beat me with a stick if my babbling gets on your nerves. Norly!
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Andrea was right. My brain is way too active.

I just finished watching a Sally Lockhart movie, The Shadow in the North and I knew it would end like that. Ahaha. So predictable~ And yet I was still going, "... don't kill off that character just because that happened. I like that character."

First time a character I liked got killed. You know. Besides Sirius Black. Boo.

But seriously, I've been wanting to watch or read a good mystery or suspense thriller in a while. And funny enough that the only reason I saw The Ruby in the Smoke was because I was flipping through channels on my tv and saw Billie Piper. Of course, I wasn't sure at first it was and lucky me, I ended up starting in on the show about 5 minutes in. Normally, I miss like a whole half of the Masterpiece Theater and have to look it up online. 's what I had to do for Casanova.

But yeah. Mysteries or things will puzzles like that are always enjoyable~ especially when I figure out what's going to happen before it happens. Ah. Yes. That is always fun.

I actually used to be horrible about that sort of thing, really. My sister Shorty was always faster, but I guess I've gotten better (worse?) about that sort of thing because yeah. Or maybe it's because Sally Lockhart isn't really on the same level as, say, Sherlock Holmes. Because I still find it hard to actually get Holmes stuff before it's revealed. Boo.

... I wants more mystery novels/movie-adaptations.

Ah well. *crams for une petite interrogation de français*


EDIT: 3:52PM - have no idea how ready for this little test I am but oh well.

P.S. Hard phonetic alphabet is hard. But getting the hang of it! And it is helping me with pronouncing my French better~
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So. The reason why I wasn't online Friday night?

The internet servers for pretty much all of campus was DOWN. I mean down in the sense that I walked in around 8 or 8:30PM ready to work on my CFUD app and stuff only to find that I couldn't log in. I waited about an hour, then left, thinking I could get some sleep in, come back, and it would be up. No such luck. I returned at 2AM only to find it was still down. Tried logging in for another 30 minutes until I got beyond frustrated and asked the person at the desk if I should hold my breath on the servers being up soon. She said, "Not likely. They'll probably get around to it tomorrow afternoon."

... lol. I had a football game day. And those are an all-day thing for the band.

So I thought I'd try my bo-bo'd up laptop to get on, but EL OH EL, the internet wasn't working in my dorm either. BRILLIANT.

I was actually tempted to annoy some people and text message the whole of my app to them or something but decided against it, even though I feel horrible because this is the THIRD MONTH IN A ROW that I've failed at sending in an app. Orz. Life why are you topping me?

Anyway, besides me bitching about the internets failing me, this is me reassuring people that I'm doing better, my throat is healing (lol, 3 prescription medicines helping with that, uwah--and actually I forgot to bring with me the one with a strict regime... damn. will walk back and get it when I get my "lunch") and not so hurty anymore! Part of the reason is also because I didn't play on my clarinet much or yell and scream at the football game (we won: 41 to 23 or something like that. wh00twh00t).

So yeah. Doing better in that department. As for Saturday's schedule? It was insane.

7:30AM - Wake up
8AM - Rehearsal
9:45AM - Breakfast
10:40AM - Parade over to Railroad Park for Pep Rally
12PM - Lunch
1PM - Performance at Time Out For Tech at Howard Auditorium
2:30PM - Get a ride to the stadium
3:30PM - Walk of Pride performance
~4PM - Parade to the President's house
~5PM - Parade into stadium
~6PM - GAME TIME
~11PM - Leave stadium

... *falls over and whines*

I ended up going to bed at 2AM and waking up at 2PM. Lolz. Mmm sleep. I love you~

And yeah, fun stuff.

So how's everyone else been?
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Just got back from a Pep Rally and goddamn it, I miss having in-door pep rallys. Freakin' mosquitoes were eating us ALIVE, I swear. And now my legs itch like crazy DX

And before I get started on this post, let me just say that... guys? I know not to do a lot of those things I ranted about before. Like a said. "Me" is a smart person, apparently. And knows not to. But it's always there, that sort of thing. But I'm too much of a control freak to do anything of the sort. ... at least not to the point of addiction.

But thanks for the advice and such? It's just very frustrating sometimes when people tell me "You don't get it" when they talk about those kinds of things. And yes, I don't get it. Mostly because I can't stand not being in control of myself. So probably a lot of those people "don't get it" about control freaks and things like that. Meh.

Anyway, on to more happier subjects or something.

Today, I slept through my classes. Mostly because I was feeling absolutely horrible. Not because of my sleeping schedule, surprisingly. But more because of the fact that the pre-mature weather change from highs of 100 to highs of 80 got to my immune system. Not only that but it's been dry as fuck over here--was 100% humidity, now it's closer to 60%. It's murder on my poor throat which I need to speak French and play my clarinet.

So yeah. I was sick. And couldn't get the energy to get up, coughing like crazy, throat burning and sob. I took one tablet of aspirin in hopes that it would help, but of course it didn't. Silly me. Thankfully, my throat seems a lot better for it since I'm a chatterbox in my classes or something, going to class would mean I would end up talking and using my throat and that would aggravate it worse.

But I did end up going to band, because we had a pep rally right after rehearsal and those are worth like my entire grade if I don't show up without a proper excuse.

Meh.

I'm actually going to head to bed early tonight--like only gonna be online till 11PM over here at the latest. Because ahaha, I need a good amount of sleep if I want my throat to get better and my immune system to kick back into gear. Trust me, I'm not the only one having troubles with the sudden change in weather. It's horrible really--even if the temperatures feel so nice.

Besides that... huh. I dunno.

Okay, I'm bored.

MEME!

Since there's so many new people on my flist and such, let's get to know each other! Ask me a question and I will answer and then ask you a question which you will then answer before asking me another question! And on and on with the circle of life and all that jazz!

You know you love it, okay go.
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I feel the need to make a political post here sooner or later. If only so people on my flist (who range from extreme left to extreme right in the political spectrum) can understand just where I'm at in the whole deal. For now, though. I'll simply say that, personally, I'm still on the fence about both candidates and actually wouldn't vote for either if the votings were tomorrow. That may change in the coming months, but I really really don't know who would be best for the nation as it is now and how it will be pretty soon if we don't get our acts together.

If you have your own view about the American politic game this year, feel free to share. But like in any public forum, please do not bash the other candidate. I don't care if you hate them and think they should burn in a fire. I do not want the wank and the clusterfuck on my LJ. Take it elsewhere. Similarly, I do respect the person now in charge of our country only because he's in charge of it. He fucks up, yes, but he's human. Get over it. Bashing does not do anything to change that he is still the president until the elections are over.

But beyond that, I do want to hear your opinions and whatnot. Feel free to link to news articles and the like about stuff like that. But please do make sure they're creditable sources or I just might right it off as plain, good ol' propaganda.



That said, my French book was insanely expensive. There is absolutely no reason my text book--which is probably less than 300 pages--costs over $100. That is just fucking insane.

But at least I have it now and ma prof won't get onto me about it. Yay for refund checks giving me monies to work with!

In other news, I may not be online until around 9 or 10PM tonight. WE SHALL SEE. Because ahahaha, anime club meeting and I'm fairly sure people will want to watch more Soul Eater and watching Soul Eater in large group always = A++.

... also shit, I need to withdraw money to pay for my membership fee. D:

Anyway, class now. Later all!
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So I guess seeing who has the most comments on my LJ now would be a good one.

Commenters on jeva_chan's LiveJournal
(Of users in friends list)

1	candy__chan	1711
2	socchan	1000
3	ehrenyu	817
4	sannask	685
5	ytak	506
6	atoli	462
7	m0ny	455
8	dagronrat	399
9	juneaddams	375
10	jiah	370

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Report generated 9/15/2008 8:27:14 PM by scrapdog's LJ Comment Stats Wizard 1.7

( 11 - 100 here. )

And there you have it.

Also, if you have not commented in this post and you want me to keep you on my flist, please do comment before this Wednesday. That is when the official cut will take place.

Love you guys. ♥
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Rules: I was asked 5 personal questions by a friend. If you'd like to do the meme, leave me a comment. I'll come up with 5 questions, which you answer in your LJ.

( ehrenyu's questions )

( shadoewhunter's questions )

In other news, if I have to hear "Monsieur LaFleur a-t-il lu les vingt journaux espagnols que vous aviez choisis et mis dans son salon vendredi dernier à minuit?" one more time, I might have to hit something.

Sob. French accent sohard.
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Yeah, talking about my icon.

Guys, I'm bored.

Gimme some prompts.

Just words will work.

Also, if you haven't commented to stay on my f-list, please go over here and do that because after that post has been up for a week, I will be removing names of people who haven't commented.


ETA: ICON MEME!

Ganked from _secretpassion_

1. I'm going to talk about my 6 icons that were picked.
2. You reply to let me know you want to do the meme.
3. I pick 6 of your icons for you to tell me about in your journal.
4. Other people reply to you, causing the cycle to continue and icon!love all around.

( Answers to the 6 I was asked about... )

So. It's September 11th, and this is of course the one time in the year when I am all about remembering where I was and what was going on when it happened. Lots of things have happened since then (and I still lolz when I think about how I made a Spiderman joke when I heard the news--it kept my sanity okay) and a lot of things have changed but of course, the more things change, the more they stay the same.

Today is also my Mom's birthday. And one thing I remember most about that day seven years ago is how depressed my mom was when she heard the news. Because her birthday was ruined and well... I can't remember if this was before or after moving to the rent house (I'm leaning toward after) but August-September have never been good months at home, really--same for November-December, but we get over it. Of course, my dad tried to cheer my mom up by taking her out that weekend and getting her this lovely chocolate cake. I guess it helped things smooth over, but yeah. It sticks in my mind how my mom cried about how her day of birth would have that kind of scar on it because of the planes crashing into the buildings and that field in Pennsylvania.

So... yeah. It's been seven years since then and it's my mom's birthday. I love you, Mom. I hope you're having a good year this year what with your moving to open space and probably getting what you've wanted most for a long time.

As for me. I'm dealing with a few issues. Not too much--hell, no where near the stuff I went through last year around this time (thank god for not having a job, I'd probably die), but my attention span is the same as ever in the classroom. By which, I mean wandering every five seconds. My history prof told me not to read my history book in class because he was lecturing, but I was wanting to read more about King Richard I and the stuff leading up to the Magna Carta.

... which isn't a bad thing. At least I'm interested in the subject and paying attention to things. I just have to be mindful that it's my nature to have half a mind on what's being said and half a mind on what I'm reading. It's just how I function--though I hate that people make this seem like I don't pay attention just because I'm not taking notes and I'm not looking at them.

I've an excellent memory, really. I'm cursed with it in a way. It's a trait I got from my father, who--I actually learned from my Aunt Torchie--has a photographic memory. Isn't it always great to know why, when you were a kid and you were having a vocab quiz in a kind of game-contest thing which involved the teacher reading the definition and a kid had to raise their hand and answer, when the teacher only said the word "the" and you rose your hand before any other word could be said, so you were forced to answer or lose that point and you remember the only word to have a "the" in the definition on the list?

... yeah, that kid was me. And no, I can't remember what word it was anymore, but this is part of the reason I never study for tests and the like unless I'm very unsure about the subject matter--because I don't really need to. If I hear it once, I can normally remember the information. If I read it once, I can usually see the words on the back of my eyelid--especially if it's notes I've written down. Yeah, I normally need a trigger to get me to have that vivid a memory about it--like a question or something. "What year did the Normans invade England?" "1066. This is also when stone castles in England start becoming prominent and why the English language uses French words for 'higher' speaking--veal, pork, poultry, while they're only the cooked foods in English is actually the animals themselves in French but in English they're considered 'higher' speaking because the wealthy were normally the only ones able to afford meat and--"

HJgfdasfds.

God, I'm turning into my dad and I dunno how I should feel about it. Someone asks me a question and I have to start at the beginning and work my way forward. I'm a jack of all trades--majoring in French and Spanish while also having a healthy interest for Literature and History. And I can't not think and analyze and...

I think I'm coming to better terms with my being this way. I mean, hell... I was sitting in my History class while my prof went on about the Romans and Caesar initially trying to take over England but it failed so by the time Claudius was Emperor, they tried again and then managed to succeed--until Queen Bouticca raised a rebellion in the southeast side of England, burning down three villages--London being one of them. And because of that Romans never really got into Scotland and--

Okay, yeah, he was doing all of that and I was trying to figure out my family genealogy. Because I am win and know nothing about it. Might poke my dad into emailing me a copy of the family tree or something. Something tells me I'm doomed to be the next family historian. Orz.

And yeah. I was doing the spewing of information thing in French class yesterday. Because we were talking about the rhythms of the French and English language and I spoke up to say that in English, because it's more of a closed language than an open one like French (in regards to flow between one word and the other), there are instead, stressed and unstressed syllables which gives the English language more of a kind of continuous wave of rhythm while French is more of a gradual grow upwards until the end of a sentence kind of thing and...

My head is so full these days. It's actually been rather pleasant. Because when I have nothing to think about, that's when my mind finds things to think about. Which leads to me questioning myself which leads into that spiral of self-loathing and such and just... yeah.

So that's basically what I'm dealing with in recent days. I really think this summer helped me recover a lot from the Winter and Spring Quarter because, while I may not be where I should in regards to a number of things, I'm better off than what I was back then. Because... well, to put it simply, it really sucked.

I'm just really hoping that I don't have a seasonal depression thing and I'll be able to get through this Winter all right. I'll probably not get a job for a while, though, because I'm buckling down and trying to get all my education done as fast as possible. Even if it means I will be taking up English and History as minors if I can't get enough classes to fill the hours.

... god I'm probably going to be in school another two years at this rate, but hopefully it'll all be worth it.

And if you're wondering if I had a purpose to this post? Not really.

Hope you all enjoyed the babble!
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JE SUIS EN DÉSESPOIR!

... okay so not really.

Orz. I've needed to take this oral French course for ages but nerves are going haywire. But hey! I am proud of myself that I was able to understand a lot more of the french that people spoke than I would have thought. And most of it wasn't because I was translating word-for-word in my head.

Kudos. It's only taken me three FULL YEARS to get this far in my French language.

Hopefully Spanish will be faster to master. Orz.

And yes, I had to post this. The French deserves its own post since it EATS MY SOUL.

loev french :<
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