So.

DeMattos handed out the essay portion of our exam... which is due next Friday.

HEY GUYS, I HAVE A 4-PAGED PAPER AND A 5-PAGED PAPER IN ADDITION TO THE TWO 5-PAGED PAPERS I HAVE TO COMPLETE.











s-sob.

Good thing I already posted my hiatus ._.


EDIT: Priority of the papers and writings and shit I need to get done.

- the 4 reading reports (MUST BE DONE AND TURNED IN BY TODAY)
- the 5-paged French paper on le flâneur (TRY TO HAVE IT DONE TODAY AND-OR EARLY IN THE MORNING TOMORROW)
- the 5-paged English paper (HAVE DONE BY THIS WEEKEND AND EMAIL IT WITH LOADS OF APOLOGIES TO JUNGMAN, ilu jungman dun hate me ;;)
- the presentation on the French education system (HAVE TO HAVE COLLABORATION WITH MY PARTNER DONE AND READY FOR THURSDAY)
- the 4-paged French exam paper (MUST BE DONE BY NEXT FRIDAY)
- the 5-paged French exam paper (MUST BE DONE BY NEXT FRIDAY)

... guys, if you can't find my body, it's under all the literature texts. You'll probably find me clinging to a surrealist poem by André Breton. sob.
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So. Yeah, like I thought, my schedule is already messed up. This is what I get for trying to sleep through the cramps and pain and you can bite me if you don't like the tmi.

In other news, I did read the French articles I have to present today in class. I even highlighted... a lot. Mostly important things. Hopefully I won't suck too badly when I speak it in French (because the articles are in English). But I'm sure I'll do fine. They're short, anyway. And it'll be awesome to get these out of the way so I can just focus on the 5-paged paper on the flâneur I owe DeMattos.

... I'm still staring at my icon going, "Awww, he's so cute."

Ftr, the icon comes from the art in this video. Yes, I realize a lot of people frown and disapprove of this kind of thing in the fandom community but I am one of those people who say if you put it on the internet, it's free game to play with. Besides, I plan to credit the video anyway because it's wonderfully bawwww-ish and all.

Beyond all of this. I've actually cheered up considerable since my last entry. I guess I just needed food, rest, and time for the pain to lessen. Which I've done and has happened! So yeah.

Idk, I feel like babbling a lot right now. ♥

Oh, I should probably also mention that because of caffeinic I've been taking very basic German lessons at LiveMocha.com. Which probably isn't as good as having actual lessons but I'm mostly trying to get my foot in the door. I'm also signed up for Russian, Japanese, and Spanish--the Spanish so I can review things that I haven't gone over in over a year.

So yeah. Fun stuff. I feel very lively compared to last year--hell, compared to a couple of months or weeks ago. So... who knows? I guess I am getting better. ♥
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... my life this school year has been entirely uninteresting and thus boring.

Obviously, I should spice it up a little next quarter.

But how does we do this, precious? It's not like I have people I hang around here or something. But I guess I could get a job. Or try to anyway. That could change things up or--OOOOH, I know what I can do. I can take walks and hit up the Frothy Monkey and take my laptop with me. And do my school work for once. As well as RP.

I dunno. I need to change things up a little or else I will go stir crazy this next quarter. But maybe not. If I get those classes I want... should be interesting.

And I definitely need to change up my RP line-up. Or, uh. Not change it up so much as toss out my other three more (Prussia stop being a damn conquering nation and let the others have their fu--... that gives me the idea of playercesting. ... I should do that, actually. Could get me a feel for my characters again. IF YOU HAVE SUGGESTIONS FOR A SCENARIO TO ENABLE THIS, SPEAK NOW).

But yeah. I dunno. I guess it's because my sister is finally getting out of her depressed state and while I've gotten out of my depressed state months ago, I'm still very :| about things right now and... need a change.

... when I get money again, the first thing I'm doing is lopping off my hair. It's getting too long and annoying and all I ever do is wear it up. Maybe I could try something new with it? Also shorter hair with glasses. That'll be something I haven't seen in a few years.

I don't know. I kind of miss things being hectic like they were when I had a job. Not those times where I nearly died--though those were kind of awesome in their own retarded way--and definitely not the times... after last winter but just something needs to come along and spice things up.

My little sister didn't get how I could not be all excited about stuff that she does and I go, "... yeah, did that two years ago," until just recently, actually. Yeah. I'm burnt out at this place. Need some place new and different but ONE MORE YEAR LEFT.

And hey, if I stay with my folks this summer, I'll have a whole town to mess around in--along with acres and acres of farmland to explore. And I could probably get a job at the Hastings there. Uhuhu.

... idk, I needed to babble. But definitely going to start with the changing my schedule and behavior with cutting my hair when I have money again.

Which I'll have when I sale my Chemistry book :|
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Okay, so.

POSSIBLE schedule for Spring '09 under the cut. I say possible because it'll be a little bit before I register for it, and I'm sure my adviser will be all, "But, Jazz, you need to fulfill your GERs..." which I am doing--look, a different science that isn't Chemistry! \o

( Lolol, I want this schedule liek BURNING )

Other options include: Art Appreciation (since I had to drop it last quarter, which... still didn't help much what with my fail and all but...) which has TBA by the time it's offered so I'm SOL in choosing it until it has that situated.

Also there is the possibility of Speech. But that would mean I have to toss out one of the Englishes and I wants them :<

... but yeah, chances are I'll have to switch things around and stuff and blaaaaargh.

But at least I'm plotting!

Mostly I went with this because I did declare History and English my minors and this'll definitely help finish those two off since my French is pretty much done.

Speaking of plotting, I'm going to have to see about enrolling in the university near my parents' place to see if I can register over there for the summer for Spanish courses. Because I needs them. And wants them. Even if I will have a French accent the whole damn time I speak. ;;

Aaaaand that's it. \o
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Also my eyes are burning liek whoa with exhaustion, so I'm expecting them to bleed at any moment.

SO. TOOK MY SHAKESPEARE MIDTERM. ACTUALLY DID LOADS BETTER THAN I THOUGHT I WOULD. W-which is a good thing since I was barely conscious when I walked into the class. Orz.

During the break between the exam and picking up with new history/literature relations for The Merchant of Venice, I stopped by the Foreign Language Department (which was right next door, literally) and talked with Mrs. Donna going, "... so about declaring those minors?"

I will soon officially be a French and Spanish double-major with a double minor in History and English.

Count down to classes needed to fulfill all of these:

- 2 French courses (which if I pass these courses I'm in now, that will be cleared \o)
- 2 English courses (which if I pass the Shakespeare course, I will only have 1 left, and I'm definitely going to take that linguistics-y course my prof of the Shakespeare course, Jungman, is teaching in the Spring)
- 3 History courses (because I failed that English history course in the Fall, otherwise it would've been 2 :/)
- 7 Spanish courses (... well shit. I think I might be able to get one or two this next quarter and then go on next year with one or two (preferably two--they usually offer two of the higher courses at a time during the quarters...) and be able to finish it out in time. If all else fails, I can do what my mother suggested and go to Texas and enroll in the A&M there for Spanish course credits but LA Tech is picky as hell with what can and can't carry over. WE'LL SEE WHAT HAPPENS. IF ALL ELSE FAILS, I CAN DROP IT TO A MINOR *DOES NOT LET IT GO*)

And that's not getting into the GERs I have to finish out. 2 sciences or something, an appreciation course (think I'll give Art another shot), computer lit... ... I think that's it actually.

So plenty to keep me with a full schedule for one more year here at Tech. And then I'm done.

... holy shit, that is a frightening thought.

In other news, I have 21 pages of an article (which is actually more like 42 pages of a pocket-sized book) to read by tomorrow and a French exam at 2PM (which I need to make notecards for STAT) aaaaand... a crapload of readings and studying for the midterm for my French Lit course on Monday.

And that's not even touching all the readings I have to do for that Lit course after the exam.

Aaaaaaagh.

... and I'm in the middle of the CFUW event which has been AWESOME and WIN and IF I AM UP PAST 1AM CST TONIGHT, KICK ME HARD PLEASE BECAUSE I CANNOT AFFORD IT AND WILL PROBABLY HAVE TO GET UP EARLY TO MAKE QUICK NOTES SO I CAN GIVE A 15-MINUTE-ISH PRESENTATION ON THAT UBER-LONG ARTICLE.

Lolol. I sorta have missed this kind of insane rush. I do awesome when I have this kind of pressure on me, even if I end up kind of crashing at the end of it and go, "Afjasdfjk notmovingfrombedfordaysscrewyoulife," at the end of it.

Orite. I also have a 5 to 10 page research paper for my Shakespeare course due on theeeee... 17th of February. FUCK YEAH!

And then two articles to present in the Lit class on the 13th and 16th.

... I'm gonna make me a comprehensive calendar so I can keep better track of these things and NOT get involved so deeply in RP events or something.

And no one is allowed to hit me because I AM SURVIVING \o/

... *licks f-list* :>
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... the German is because RPing Prussia makes me want to learn it. SO FAIL!GERMAN \o

What? It's on my list of languages to learn. *plots buying dictionaries and grammar books*

Anyway. Today actually has a good ending. Even though I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off for most of the day--running on 3 bottles of Vault caffeine (fucking Vault ZERO) and pure will and determination.

... though I should've added food to the mix. I chewed gum for most of the day instead.

Reading and understanding and speaking French while sleep deprived is always fun. For some reason though, I was reading better than this one guy who is hoping to get an apprenticeship or something overseas because he's graduating. I guess that makes me feel better? Like I've come a long way since I first started. That phonetics course really did help a lot.

And then in band, oh boy. Reading music in 140+ tempo with running 16th or 8th notes so damn fun when you're ready to just pass out. I almost started laughing out loud in the middle of the set, just because I was at that feels-drunk state of sleep deprivation. I think... idk...

And then I ate a hamburger and crashed. Hard. For four hours or so. When I woke up, my sister had stocked up the snack foods and said I was free to have half of it. She even let me have 1/2 the parfaits, though I know she loves 'em. So I ate one because it's light and my stomach was hating me for not eating much and stuff...

And now I'm ready to pass out again. Alarm's already set for 7AM and... yeah. Today's been pretty good even if crazy and hectic and stuff. I know this kind of shit isn't good for me, but you know? It's good to know that I can still persevere through things if I really try. I've been giving up a lot more lately than I had thought.

*curls up on someone*
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Okay so, because I'm failing so hard at trying to stay awake and get to my classes because I can't afford to miss any more of them (ahahahaha orz), I totally missed the inauguration BUT THAT'S TOTES COOL because my whole flist is going on about it. Soooo...

Guys, guys. I'm gonna totally crash tonight and it will be epic and I will be back on schedule. Hahahahahaha!

S-sob never let me do this again ever please kay thanks...

IN OTHER NEWS: I love my castmates in the faise. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

... I need more caffeine so I don't pass out in the middle of French or Band. Oh shi-- 5 more hours to go \o;;


EDIT: 4:09PM - Omg. I'm surviving somehow. Thought I was going to be sick and-or pass out in French but now I'm getting my second--third?--fourth?--nth? wind and ahahaha s-sob. I-I just want to lie in bed and not move and mess around on the comp until I fall asleep but sadly I am in a comp lab typing this because omg 2 more hours s-sob.

And I have 20 minutes to eat something (HAVE NOT EATEN ANYTHING ALL DAY SINCE THE PIZZA I HAD LAST NIGHT AROUND MIDNIGHT) and get to band.

Here's to hoping I continue to go against the odds and am able to READ the music on the pages in band! \o;;
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I ended up watching The Land Before Time. And... :<<<

B-besides me being a total woobie, this weekend has seen me living life during Aussie time as well as trying to fix it back to normal. But eh. I was all set and ready to go to class yesterday... which I still mentally think of as "today" meh. Anyway, I then discovered like... 2 hours before class time that it was MLK day and ahahaha, orz.

So yeah. In an hour and a half, I'm headed off to my Shakespeare class. Awesomesauce.

And... I dunno. There's really not much to tell. My sister and I finally talked over some things from last week and she's getting her stuff back together while I do the same... and... I think things're working out.

Tomorro--TODAY is for going to class, printing out stuff I need to get done for scholarships (ho shit) and... whatever else I can do while I'm still awake (have been awake since 6PM drrdrrdrr).

... yeah.


EDIT: 10:14AM - Aaaaagh. why do I always grab the Vault ZERO whenever I'm rushing to get caffeine into my system. I miss the sugar content >>>:
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I've gone and fucked up my sleep schedule.

Note to self: Never. EVER buy Vault at night. EVER. Even if you just tell yourself it's for tomorrow because you need to make it through your classes. You will just end up drinking it all and then be buzzing around hyperly for all night and then crash and then fuck up your sleep schedule.

And especially don't buy TWO OF THEM and then proceed to GUZZLE THEM RIGHT DOWN AT 10PM ON A MONDAY NIGHT.

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Sob.

BUT THAT'S TOTALLY OKAY BECAUSE I ONLY HAVE A COUPLE OF DAYS LEFT BEFORE CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS. HUZZAH!

B-but I'm not going to have a perfect attendance score for classes this week. Baw.

I'm going to try to not do this to myself again but I probably won't be able to fix my sleep schedule to something more sane this week. I'll just have to push on through it and attend classes even if I'm falling asleep.

... and I have a Chemistry test tomorrow. Sob.

Also, can I say here right here and now that I feel like a horribly ignorant person? I know that I can come across as one, especially when I "argue" points others are trying to make. Common misconception, that. It's not so much that I argue against these points. I argue for the sake of debate because sometimes people hand me new information that does not match with the old information I've been given.

I dunno.

Older adults always used to tell me how bright a kid I was. Hell, they still do it for time to time, but now I'm left wondering if it's just because of where I live. Because oh you silly Americans, you're so close-minded and you only think of yourselves~ Believe me, this is a line I hear a lot thanks to being in foreign language courses and the like. And sometimes it's not really said but ho boy is it implied. Mostly by people in my class, sometimes even my French professor DeMattos. But, you know... he's French. Not that he means it horribly negatively. Just that he wants to teach us what our education system apparently neglects to teach us. HARD TO DESCRIBE THIS RELATIONSHIP but that's sorta how the Franco-American relationship goes?

I dunno. I always thought it was a bit unfair that I've only ever lived in one place. But I don't think I'd trade where I was born? I just wish I could have had more opportunities to travel and study and... just whatever.

Meh. I think I'm going to head to bed here in a bit. And only get ~5 hours. Definitely not more. That way I will actually be TIRED at the appropriate time rather than staying up into all hours of the night.

AND NO SUGAR OR CAFFEINE OR WHAT HAVE YOU, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, ME.


EDIT: Changing my mind. Am staying up and attending my class at 9:30, damn it. Even if it kills me. Or something.

God I feel so failtastic. I blame certain people who shall go unnamed for the time being YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
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So.

Interesting day. Just gonna say that I'm not going to be doing the staying up all night thing because I'm scared I'll oversleep and miss my early-morning classes again.

Reason being is that I now have an alarm clock.

That hopefully works. I just bought it but LOLZ.

So yeah, uh. Went down the list of things I could use for an alarm last night with a few people in chan. Short of it is, my cellphone is dead and charger is two hours away, I have no computer, I don't really have any friends that would wake me up (shhhhh, Sara. the phone's dead, remember?), and my DS is... somewhere. In my room. And I have no idea where.

So ahahaha. Orz. Yeah. Can has alarm clock. Hopefully won't be pulling this kind of thing anymore.

IN OTHER NEWS, I love having retarded songs stuck in my head. It's just kind of funny.

Insert whining about lack of inspiration here.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaand... I think that's it.

WARNING: I MAY OR MAY NOT BE PULLING A HERMIT MODE THING THIS WEEKEND. MOSTLY BECAUSE I NEED TO READ A LOT OF FRENCH AND ALSO BECAUSE I WANT TO STUDY UP ON TWO LANGUAGES I'VE STARTED BUT HAVEN'T REALLY GOTTEN ANYWHERE WITH YET. This is entirely relevant to that one post where I mentioned picking up a fourth... sorta. We'll see how it goes, in any case.

Aaaand that's the long and short of it for the time being.

... I feel like such an awesome dork when I use Prussia icons.


ETA: THEWHATILIKEABOUTYOUMEME ✖ my thread
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Je pense que le cours de français avec mon prof DeMattos soit un cours difficile. C'est parce que je réfléchisse au dernier cours avec DeMattos ce printemps et... oui. Paranoia~ Paranoia~ Tout le monde me voit~

... if that makes any sense at all.

Yes, basically, I'm flailing about my French class with DeMattos this quarter. It is scarily like the class I nearly bombed in the Spring and... I really hope to do better in this class. I plan to actually do my readings and get all my assignments done on time but... yeah. I dunno. PARANOIA!

Orz...

I should probably get some food so I can not feel sickish at the thought of it being like last year. Orz orz orz...


ETA: ... my icon makes me want to write some FrancisArthur fic... taking place during the Norman invasion and Francis is teaching Arthur French (because we all know from the kink meme that that kind of thing is hot).

And now I worry what my parents will think if they read this post--OH WELL.


ETA 2: 2:18PM - Well, it's official. I am crazy. *continues to ponder studying the beginnings of her fourth foreign language*

Currently I have: French, Spanish, and Japanese. Note that I do not claim to be fluent in any of these, just that I know some of them and could probably get by in a country with the first two languages. Japanese I mostly can read hiragana and understand some of it when it's spoken to me. Couldn't write it or speak it for beans, though.

... orz. Some day, I will be an eclectic knowledge of foreign languages. Or something.

On my list to get around to studying some day: German, Russian, Gaelic, Greek, Latin, Italian, Chinese, Korean... Need moar languages. Yosh.

I'm also amused when my friend Patrick claims that Southern!US!English is its own language. Also, l337. *snerk*
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