Okay, so. Since some foods are making me queasy at the moment, I'm going to be writing out my daily intake and determine which foods I shouldn't indulge in quite so much anymore. I think part of my problem is that I had been eating too big of portions and nothing really healthy, so my body was rebelling and... well.

Lunch:
- 2 grilled cheese sandwiches
- fries w/ ketchup
- blue juice (some kind of berry blend, idk)
- blue Powerade

How I felt after eating: A bit queasy but not as bad as yesterday when I scarfed down those burger and fries. Ended up taking a nap and feeling sick and shaky for no real reason. Woke up with a nasty taste in my mouth and throat that wouldn't go away even when I brushed my teeth and tongue. Ugh.

Dinner:
- bowl of granola cereal w/ whole milk
- 2 glasses of cranberry juice

How I feel after eating: This remains to be seen since I only just ate but so far, not feeling nauseous or queasy. I do feel more full than I really should though, which does tell me that, yes, I've been eating way too big of portions and really need to cut back on that. Though the granola cereal was a bit too sweet and start making me go :(. But it was the only grainy cereal that was available :<

For snackage later if I get hungry in the evening:
- 2 apples

This is because I know from yesterday that fruit actually doesn't make me queasy. Huzzah.

And with that... I am chilling.

Also, lol. Russian History class gave me ficcage idea but meh. Idk if I'll ever get around to writing it. |D
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My Russian History prof is a wonderful person and I can afford to not be terrified of doing miserably in this class despite my attendance record.

Need to talk things out with Jungman again, though.

I am a horrible student.

I noticed something about myself in the caf today. I eat very quickly. Like... almost like a starving person. And I dunno why. Even when I'm not that hungry. I just eat fast and am done with a full meal in less than 15 minutes. Like... getting in the caf, getting in line for food, for drinks, sitting down, eating, and then putting away the dishes--15 minutes for all of that. Tops.

Part of it could be because it was beef tips over rice and I haven't been getting a lot of meat lately. So I just homphgomph'd it. Idk.

I also had a salad and some fruit.

... and smuggled two apples out of the caf in my purse. (We're not supposed to do this but oh well!)

I also drank some Dr. Pepper. Not that healthy a choice, but it has caffeine. And sugar. And I need to keep awake so I can get to bed at a decent time tonight. Mrrh.

So yeah. Fun time all around.

Also, ftr, Stalin's name in Cyrillic (Сталин) bugged me for a while because my prof wrote it and there was an upside-down V where the L sound should be. Turns out that upside-down V is interchangeable with Л.

... yeah, idek. It threw me off and I had to ask her why it was like that because sob. Foreign language major. MUST KNOW WHY IT IS.

And thus has been my day so far. Hurhurhur.
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Shit shit shit.

Why did I bother eating? I knew it would make me feel sicker and yet there was still that hope that it'd make me feel better. Nooo, of course not. Eating when my body is rebelling against me never = a good idea and yet!

And I have shit to get done tonight so I can't just lie in bed and do nothing. Have to read and summarize two articles that I have to present in my French Lit class at 9:30 tomorrow and WHY IS IT SO FUCKING COLD IN THESE BUILDINGS? I have my damn jacket on!

... I'm killing my little sister if she gave me her sick on top of my feminine issues.

Two more hours or so until I get to crawl into bed and work on the assignments.

I feel so sick right now, it's not even funny. Thankfully it's not a nauseous sick yet, but it's a "I feel weak and my focus is no where and I'm tired and I hurt" kind of sick-feeling.

Not to mention feeling hot and cold at weird moments.

... I'll take my temperature when I get back to my dorm. Ten to one, it's not any different than what it usually is because my body temp is weird like that.
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... the German is because RPing Prussia makes me want to learn it. SO FAIL!GERMAN \o

What? It's on my list of languages to learn. *plots buying dictionaries and grammar books*

Anyway. Today actually has a good ending. Even though I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off for most of the day--running on 3 bottles of Vault caffeine (fucking Vault ZERO) and pure will and determination.

... though I should've added food to the mix. I chewed gum for most of the day instead.

Reading and understanding and speaking French while sleep deprived is always fun. For some reason though, I was reading better than this one guy who is hoping to get an apprenticeship or something overseas because he's graduating. I guess that makes me feel better? Like I've come a long way since I first started. That phonetics course really did help a lot.

And then in band, oh boy. Reading music in 140+ tempo with running 16th or 8th notes so damn fun when you're ready to just pass out. I almost started laughing out loud in the middle of the set, just because I was at that feels-drunk state of sleep deprivation. I think... idk...

And then I ate a hamburger and crashed. Hard. For four hours or so. When I woke up, my sister had stocked up the snack foods and said I was free to have half of it. She even let me have 1/2 the parfaits, though I know she loves 'em. So I ate one because it's light and my stomach was hating me for not eating much and stuff...

And now I'm ready to pass out again. Alarm's already set for 7AM and... yeah. Today's been pretty good even if crazy and hectic and stuff. I know this kind of shit isn't good for me, but you know? It's good to know that I can still persevere through things if I really try. I've been giving up a lot more lately than I had thought.

*curls up on someone*
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So I've been feeling a bit sickish. Worst day so far has been today because of cramps and all that fun stuff. It's been hurting so bad that I can't get an appetite and feel sick. Luckily, drinking caffeine has always helped ease the pain so it's not taking over my legs too.

But yeah. I've also been bad about sleeping and eating this past week. I think it's a remnant of remembering what happened last year with the being sick and the issues and stuff. I actually finally got the idea that this was the problem when I was talking with a friend last night. Feel bad because I dumped a lot on them but they said it was okay, but still...

And even though I feel sick and want to curl up into a ball and ignore the world, I've been playing Prussia liek whoa over at CFUD. So much fun and hilarity. Primary #2 get.

Probably gonna sleep around midnight or so tonight. Hopefully. Know how I said I've been sleeping bad? Yeah. Averaging 3 to 4 hours a night and... yeah. Feeling pretty crappy in general.

*leans on someone*
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I've gone and fucked up my sleep schedule.

Note to self: Never. EVER buy Vault at night. EVER. Even if you just tell yourself it's for tomorrow because you need to make it through your classes. You will just end up drinking it all and then be buzzing around hyperly for all night and then crash and then fuck up your sleep schedule.

And especially don't buy TWO OF THEM and then proceed to GUZZLE THEM RIGHT DOWN AT 10PM ON A MONDAY NIGHT.

...

Sob.

BUT THAT'S TOTALLY OKAY BECAUSE I ONLY HAVE A COUPLE OF DAYS LEFT BEFORE CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS. HUZZAH!

B-but I'm not going to have a perfect attendance score for classes this week. Baw.

I'm going to try to not do this to myself again but I probably won't be able to fix my sleep schedule to something more sane this week. I'll just have to push on through it and attend classes even if I'm falling asleep.

... and I have a Chemistry test tomorrow. Sob.

Also, can I say here right here and now that I feel like a horribly ignorant person? I know that I can come across as one, especially when I "argue" points others are trying to make. Common misconception, that. It's not so much that I argue against these points. I argue for the sake of debate because sometimes people hand me new information that does not match with the old information I've been given.

I dunno.

Older adults always used to tell me how bright a kid I was. Hell, they still do it for time to time, but now I'm left wondering if it's just because of where I live. Because oh you silly Americans, you're so close-minded and you only think of yourselves~ Believe me, this is a line I hear a lot thanks to being in foreign language courses and the like. And sometimes it's not really said but ho boy is it implied. Mostly by people in my class, sometimes even my French professor DeMattos. But, you know... he's French. Not that he means it horribly negatively. Just that he wants to teach us what our education system apparently neglects to teach us. HARD TO DESCRIBE THIS RELATIONSHIP but that's sorta how the Franco-American relationship goes?

I dunno. I always thought it was a bit unfair that I've only ever lived in one place. But I don't think I'd trade where I was born? I just wish I could have had more opportunities to travel and study and... just whatever.

Meh. I think I'm going to head to bed here in a bit. And only get ~5 hours. Definitely not more. That way I will actually be TIRED at the appropriate time rather than staying up into all hours of the night.

AND NO SUGAR OR CAFFEINE OR WHAT HAVE YOU, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, ME.


EDIT: Changing my mind. Am staying up and attending my class at 9:30, damn it. Even if it kills me. Or something.

God I feel so failtastic. I blame certain people who shall go unnamed for the time being YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
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I FEEL LIKE I'M WIN AND AWESOME.

M-mostly because I didn't punk out of attending class because I was tired and wanted to sleep in. This has been a chronic problem of mine since last Winter a-and I'm finally defeating it. \o;;

Beyond that, I was able to get a nap in before band.

In band we played Bach's Prelude and Fugue in A-flat and jfsdahksa I love Bach. :< I want to listen to some classical music now.

And just the random happy hyperness of pre-Christmas break.

All of this in spite of my female body rebelling against me. CURSE YOU, BODY OF MINE. *waves fist at*

... who wants/needs cuddles right now? I feel very much like snuggling with people.
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So. Because I am a brilliant person, I end up leaving my school ID (also the only means to get food from the caf) at the bookstore this Friday and didn't notice until Saturday.

This means that I went the whole weekend surviving on two or three things of ramen.

... yey.

Also, I smartly decided to watch cooking shows Sunday night. Emeril, some American Iron Chef, some other Food Network show...

Needless to say that I was (still am, actually, gonna go eat here shortly) hungry. And had nothing to eat and no money to get food. ;o;

Luckily, I recovered my ID this morning and got a quick snack before going into my French class with DeMattos fully prepared! I read Madame de Staël's biography as well as François-René de Chateaubriand's biography and Le Mal du siècle, which is an excerpt from his work René (which I just read a summary of on wikipedia and wtf that ending).

Read all of that and we didn't even touch on any of these things in class today DX

Oh, well. I'm pretty prepared for when we do go over them in class. STAYING ONE STEP AHEAD, BOHAHAHAHA!

Also, I have 2 articles I have to read and then present to my class, so people on my flist who have knowledge of French: aidez-moi, s'il vous plaît? I'll probably write a post on them whenever I get around to them.

Also, am out of hermit more, sort of. I'm feeling kind of detached from the internet and, in relation, RPing. So... I think it'll get better once I get everything all balanced out. I seem to go through phases on this. It'll pass~ It'll pass~

And now for a meme!

Your Spiritual Number is Five

You bring adventure and change to people's lives. You are willing to challenge your friends and push them to grow. Right now, your life is about figuring out where to direct your energy. If you're not careful, you can become too unreliable or flighty. You need the perfect project. You live a free form life - which allows you to be very innovative and a great problem solver. Rules, schedules, and structure practically destroy you. You have to do things your own way.

... eeeeeeeeeeeh.


EDIT: Corndog, fries, chicken creole, and a salad later, I feel more alive. Not full, really, but no feasts after a famine and all that.
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Okay, so.

When having hydrogen peroxide in your ear tickles to the point of being painful, that is how you know you're near to having an ear infection.

Or so it seems like. It still doing that tickle-itches thing now after I treated it too. :<

But yeah, I dunno if this is a good medical way of treating an earache or not, but it's how my mom always treated it when I was a kid and it's always worked out real well. It just... tickles to the point of itchiness to the point of "whiiiine whiiine it hurts a little!"

Meh. I should be lucky they had some in the bookstore. Did not want to walk all the way to Walgreens or something.

This is what I get for going to bed with my hair wet during colder weather. D:
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Ended up sleeping around 6 hours or so. Only woke up at 2AM because my sister has this bad habit of turning on the sink light to do things that, for me at least, doesn't require much lighting. But meh. I got over it. I got sleep! And not too much sleep or, for me, too little. So I should be functional.

... though chances are I will be taking a nap sometime today. But will keep it less than 4 hours if only to keep me from getting insomnia tonight because, lolz, football game day tomorrow.

I dunno. I actually feel good, considering I survived a parade with a hurting knee and with only less than 2 hours of sleep under my belt. Actually sleep does that, I guess. Because I was so out until I woke up, it felt like I'd only just fallen asleep and yet felt so rested, especially when I found out what time it was.

Also, it needs to be 8AM already so I can get some food and quarters for laundry, as I have 2 weeks worth of laundry to wash currently.

Beyond that, I would talk about some of my issues or something right now, only I'm at that peaceful not really but sort of zen state. Huh. I miss this state.

But really, I should think about writing a post about things going on because... I'm doing that thing where I talk a lot, just about everything and nothing at all that has to do with how I'm doing and what I'm feeling. I need to find a way to break out of doing that. But... right now, I can't be bothered. I feel good, somewhat rested, peaceful-like. Pretending nothing's wrong for the time being can't hurt, can it?
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I'm really a fuck-up.

I don't sleep, then I end up over-sleeping instead of going to my counseling session.

I sleep, then I can't sleep until like 24 hours later which then leads me back to problem one.

And I really can't get the energy to give a rat's ass about it anymore except that I'm definitely going back to my dorm around 11PM and taking a sleep aid and, HOPEFULLY, sleeping some good long time.

... except I think one of the problems of me finding the energy to get up and go back to my dorm is because it's COLD outside. I'm wearing a long-sleeved shirt, a t-shirt, and my Dork sweatshirt. And I'm still cold when I go outside. Lolz, Louisiana, why are you in the 30s at night?

I'm hoping things get better when I get a new laptop. I can just chill in my room all night and be toasty warm under my blankets.

Too much hoping.

Also, Sara, Andrea? I'm really sort of missing you guys right now. And I feel lame because of it sorta.
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5th Year of Fail.

Sooooooob.

H-hopefully it'll be easier this year. All that I need to do is finish two papers and then I'm pretty much free except for the final in my History class. S-so...

Besides my epic fail, last night was horrible in terms of getting to sleep. I was exhausted, my eyes were burning and my brain was tired but I couldn't just lay there and get to sleep. Tried for over two hours and almost started crying when, after taking a Tylenol PM, I still couldn't sleep and it was already 1:30AM. I went to bed at midnight. This tells you something.

Luckily, I finally drifted off to sleep and thankfully woke up just before my alarm at 7AM. And thus have been having a pretty decent day today, even if I'm still beyond tired. Will sleep in tomorrow or something, I dunno.

Siiiigh.

I'm really not sure how things are going with my classes. I'm just ready for the quarter to be done and over with so I can start fresh and work better at some things. Because I still fucked up this quarter because I was still fighting things out with myself. Gg, me.

Now if only I can get back on track with my writing... maybe NaNo will help with that. Orz.



PS - CAN HAS NEED OF WARM WEATHER NAO, KTHX.
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Turning in early tonight because sob. Still recovering for the two days of sleep deprivation.

Also because I need to read a chapter or two for my history class tomorrow.

As for how things have been today? Meh. Not too bad. Could be better but I'm guessing that's mostly because it feels like my brain is like sliding around in my head and is ready to come out of an ear or an eye or something.

... I love saying morbidly gross things like that.

Une autre chose, c'est mon progrès avec français. \o Ma prof says that I'm doing a lot better orally than I've ever done and this is A++ and I am in a happy place right now in regards to that sort of thing.

Now to fix myself up in History and English. Orz.

Anyway, night all!
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Yesterday was interesting.

Did my game-day band activities (i.e. awake from 7:30AM to 10PM doing band things and then not sleeping until after midnight) on 3 hours' worth of sleep. Brilliant job, me.

Not only that but I may have gotten in trouble with the RAs in a guys dorm on the account of having alcohol present. Uh. Pretty sure it was just scare tactics with a first strike, but yeeeeeah. No, I'm not likely to drink in a dorm again (because they have me down as doing it once before) and yeeeah, no. Nothing happened. It was just us sitting around and drinking and chilling but apparently we were noisy and it was midnight so they were going to kick the girls out (boo to curfews!). They also made the guys throw away the beer (which I was not drinking as I hate the taste of beer) but they didn't find my smirnoff in the closet. This tells you how serious they were about nailing us about it--i.e. not at all. Otherwise they would have turned the place over.

Meh. It happened once. Won't be happening again. I am not that dumb, kthx. Also, let it be noted that I did object to drinking in the dorms--sneaking in small quantities of alcohol for private enjoyment is one thing. Social drinking? Noooot likely gonna work. Dunno why I went along with it. I blame the lack of sleep and easy enabling since I was brainded and wanted to get a small buzz (which I did--1 1/2 smirnoffs makes me relax and happy).

Beyond that, I slept from... maybe 2AM-ish? to about 3:30PM. Mmmm, sleep~

( Cut for dreamscape things--MAY OR MAY NOT BE TMI, KTHX )

Yeah. I've already gone to the caf and got some beef and mashed potatoes with gravy and a salad so I am good and stuff for now. *thumbs up*

Also, contemplating possible travel plans. Hey you guuuuuuys. Wanna talk that stuff out with me if you want me to to come visit? I think I might have a plan involving visiting the PNW but with a layover time period in Iowa long enough to hang out with Sara and Andrea (and possibly other Iowaners + Heather if possible?). But uh. It really depends.

... I need to poke my sister Shorty and ask her if she and my dad can pull together to get me a shiny new laptop. She said she was willing to but I had other ideas in mind at the time and said she didn't have to. I r fickle person, inorite? I can always point out the fact that Patrick got Foon/Shiz's top-of-the-line laptop for only around $900. And considering I used $1400 to pay off the laptop that was in Shorty's name...

Stuff to think about in any case!

Saa...

I r still tired atm. Mrrh *snugs with someone*
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So uh.

Last post was me... after being depressed and crying in front of my sister and being generally self-loathing and... stuff. It was 2 in the morning and even though I took a Tylenol PM, it didn't kick in until around 4AM.

So I ended up sleeping in until 9:30. And upon seeing the clock, I cursed like crazy (inwardly) because ahahaha, missed History class yet again!

And then I discovered that a class discussion was on Tuesday and I'd missed it as well, so...

Basically, I might be going from a semi-hiatus to a mostly-hiatus in terms of RPing. But who knows? I might still do my escaping from reality bit from time to time but I'm definitely cutting back and am definitely going to try to put my sleep schedule back on track.

And obviously this proves that my mood swings are either hormonal or something else because I ate food yesterday (three meals, even!). I was happy yesterday. And then I got depressed and cried and then was fine for another hour or so, then got depressed and wanted to cry more. And then I got pissed off because my little sister was bitching about how I was a picky sleeper (can't sleep in complete darkness, can't sleep with music or sound on...).

So yeah. Tired this morning, but not as pathetic as last night.

And of course, that character I was whining about? Still gonna go for them. Even if I might suck at them. Because I'm a stubborn bitch who can't just roll over and say, "Not going to bother," because damn it. I want that character. >/

... in summary: I'M DOING BETTER NOW. DUNNO HOW LONG IT WILL LAST. BUT OH WELL.

Thank you Pearl and Candy for trying to cheer me up. It's very much appreciated. ♥


ETA: Yes, I have changed the icon to this post three times shurrup.

Also, I think I should mention that I'm going to visit my older sisters this weekend--so might be very scarce with the internet usage then. Also, it should give me time to get over whatever it is that's bothering me so I can function better when I get back to Ruston. Here's to hoping it's just me being in a rut because I feel static (actually, that IS partly why I ended up crying last night) and something that can be fixed with some time traveling and whatnot.
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The following convo shows my mood atm (note: I r Azuma):

[Azuma] s'abonner a mes services ce soir, Kuroyan :D
[Basara] why are you pimping yourself out

|D

Yes, I am feeling very up this evening. Proooobably because good things have been happening or something. Maybe it's because I've actually had two decent meals today. Though... breakfast was kind of dinner for me, considering I stayed up till around 8 or 9AM.

Good thing is though that I set my alarm to 1PM so that if I wanted more sleep, I could just reset my clock to another hour. And I told myself I wasn't allowed to wake up past 4PM because I had stuff to do before my French class at 5PM.

Well, whatd'ya know. It worked. I was awake by 3:30PM, took a shower, worked on that assignment that needed working on before French, and then there was French class in which I was able to pronounce things a hell of a lot better than I used to and just kgajflkfd loooove.

Also, I'm able to help my oldest sister get herself a car. Of course this means I'll be short $240 until the 22nd, but that's totally cool because big sister getting a car \o

I still find it amusing how the economy is falling down around us and yet my family seems to doing better than ever. Here's to hoping we're not going to get kicked in the balls for it because, man, we so deserve this after those bad years.

In other news, I got to eat beef for dinner tonight! Om nom nom. The Caf had beef and I wanted so bad because I haven't had red meat in like forever. So mashed potatoes + gravy + green peas + beef + two slices of cheese pizza.

... I r totally healthy, yo.

But yeah. On top of all of that, my sore throat issue is virtually gone. And I was right that it was a nasal drainage thing because now my nose is slightly stuffed. Oh jeez whiz. Why didn't I notice this sooner?

So yeah. Am happy, am hyper, am also a little drowsy but we all know I end up becoming wired around 10PM or some crazy hour, but I also have me some Tylenol PM that I can take whenever I go back to my dorm if I can't fall asleep.

Ah... ups are so much better than downs~
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My phobia with swallowing pills is slowly going away!

Mostly because one of the prescriptions that I got for when my throat was all torn up were these ITTY BITTY TEENSY TINY tablets which I was able to swallow whole!

And last night, I had trouble getting to sleep and my head hurt a bit, so I got my aspirin and WAS ABLE TO SWALLOW THEM WITHOUT ANY TROUBLE FOR THE MOST PART.

...

Sob.

I am ridiculously proud of myself, you have NO idea. I usually chew up those aspirin tablets. soooob.
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Apparently I'm getting sick again. My throat is doing that sore thing that it was doing before but hopefully it won't be as bad. Which I don't think it is, because it's more of the regular kind of sore throat I get when I'm sick rather than the "I AM SO RAW AND DRY I AM GOING TO START CRACKING AND BLEEDING NOW, KTHX" that sent me to the health clinic last time.

... bawwwwwwww.

Well, one of the prescriptions the doc gave me that time did have a warning about how it cripples the immune system for a time. I.e. I R MORE LIKELY TO CATCH COLD ATM THAN USUAL. JOY!

In other news, I fail at life in regards to my RP. Orz. Want to jump threads or make a post but can't think of anything. And ahahaa... fail. OTL

I'm also being really anti-social and sob. I hate doing this sort of thing. Even if I sort of do need it from time to time. Curse you introverted nature of mine! *waves fist at*

So uh. Yeah.

... 'm tired.

*leans on someone*
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So. The reason why I wasn't online Friday night?

The internet servers for pretty much all of campus was DOWN. I mean down in the sense that I walked in around 8 or 8:30PM ready to work on my CFUD app and stuff only to find that I couldn't log in. I waited about an hour, then left, thinking I could get some sleep in, come back, and it would be up. No such luck. I returned at 2AM only to find it was still down. Tried logging in for another 30 minutes until I got beyond frustrated and asked the person at the desk if I should hold my breath on the servers being up soon. She said, "Not likely. They'll probably get around to it tomorrow afternoon."

... lol. I had a football game day. And those are an all-day thing for the band.

So I thought I'd try my bo-bo'd up laptop to get on, but EL OH EL, the internet wasn't working in my dorm either. BRILLIANT.

I was actually tempted to annoy some people and text message the whole of my app to them or something but decided against it, even though I feel horrible because this is the THIRD MONTH IN A ROW that I've failed at sending in an app. Orz. Life why are you topping me?

Anyway, besides me bitching about the internets failing me, this is me reassuring people that I'm doing better, my throat is healing (lol, 3 prescription medicines helping with that, uwah--and actually I forgot to bring with me the one with a strict regime... damn. will walk back and get it when I get my "lunch") and not so hurty anymore! Part of the reason is also because I didn't play on my clarinet much or yell and scream at the football game (we won: 41 to 23 or something like that. wh00twh00t).

So yeah. Doing better in that department. As for Saturday's schedule? It was insane.

7:30AM - Wake up
8AM - Rehearsal
9:45AM - Breakfast
10:40AM - Parade over to Railroad Park for Pep Rally
12PM - Lunch
1PM - Performance at Time Out For Tech at Howard Auditorium
2:30PM - Get a ride to the stadium
3:30PM - Walk of Pride performance
~4PM - Parade to the President's house
~5PM - Parade into stadium
~6PM - GAME TIME
~11PM - Leave stadium

... *falls over and whines*

I ended up going to bed at 2AM and waking up at 2PM. Lolz. Mmm sleep. I love you~

And yeah, fun stuff.

So how's everyone else been?
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Which is why I currently have the Cold War going on in my icons.

NORLY. Lookit~ Shiny Hetalianess! *shineshines!*

... I blame seeing it everywhere on my flist and then espana telling me of its awsum.

Can I help it if Alfred is sototally my kind of shounen retard airhead character while Ivan sototally has that rapist face I love so dearly? No. Srsly.

YOU CAN'T BLAME ME FOR BEING A DORK, OKAY.

... sob.

In other news, I am still sore in the mouth but good news is that I am not as weak when I stand up a lot. ... mostly because I actually ate something even though I felt sick and throw-up-y. PERSEVERANCE FTW.

Though, you know... I have work SOMETIME (hopefully not till Monday, sobsob) and it's going to suuuuuuuck because I'll be weak and hungry (I MISS REAL FOOD STILL) and stuff.

S-sigh.

BUT YES. Uh. I'm still doing good! E-even though I'm kind of alone this weekend IRL. I'll be fine! Norly! I can take care of myself!

... s-sob. I don't really want to take care of myself but I did say I'd be fine by myself why do I always do that why.

AND THAT'S ALL FOR NOW~ HIT ME UP FOR CONVO, PEEPS!
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