Deleted the last post because some conflict resulted from it. Yes, I am a hypocrite. No, I don't want to hear any more about it.

However, I will say that I tried to fix things by attempting to get my license today. Sadly, they don't like people to just walk in, drive around, and get their license anymore. Apparently 6 hour courses are required.

Which means that I'm screwed about being able to go see my family before I go off into the wild blue yonder.

But, well... look at it this way, at least since I know I can drive, I can just take the 6 hours and get my license pretty much as soon as I'm back in-state? Which means that ahahaha, I can go home more often!

... first I'll have to buy a car since it looks like Sara's car is out of the picture now. Ah well. We tried. I actually could have be able to get it all done if it wasn't for the damn 6 hour course.

Turned in my stuff for my Creative Writing class--it all sucks but what the hell! I went to the DMV and got told all of this. And now I'm headed off to talk to my adviser who is going to guilt trip me like hell because it's the day before the last day of the quarter and I fail at getting my shit together and...

*sighs*

I'm getting tired.

Thankfully, Andrea let me drive around a whole lot today and that helped with keeping me from going completely insane.

Also, phone is dying... need to charge it.

Tonight is for: getting Sanna in town safely, charging my phone, doing my take-home French exam, and packing.

... funness.
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BY WHICH I MEAN I DROVE ON THE INTERSTATE FOR A FULL 30+ MINUTES. AT NIGHT. AND I ONLY ACCIDENTALLY TURNED OFF MY HEADLIGHTS ONCE! :DDDDD

Yeah, so. Today Sara and Andrea and some other peeps and me totally went to a Japanese grill place--FREAKIN' AWSUM--and Andrea was originally going to have me drive there but ahahaha, no one knew how to get there except Andrea, so she drove. THEN I DROVE ON THE WAY BACK AND IT WAS AWSUM AND WIN AND I DRIFTED A LOT AT FIRST SO I'M SURE PEOPLE THOUGHT I WAS REALLY DRUNK OR SOMETHING BUT THEN I GOT BETTER!

Especially when I started talking and laughing incessantly.

Totally my coping mechanism when I get tense and nervous and stuff AND I TOTALLY LOVED EVERY SECOND OF IT.

Like, before we headed off to Monroe to the restaurant, Andrea was going to have me drive but I only drove around Tech campus and stuff BUT IT WAS FUN <3333 I was so less tense and stressed than I was every time before today! :DDDD

Coming down from the high, yes. BUT IT'S STILL AWSUM.

So uh yeah. Will be taking test tomorrow. Andrea's going to take me out after I turn in my portfolio for my Creative Writing class and yes. Win.

Even if I don't pass the test, it will still be win and awsum because AT LEAST I TRIED.

In other news, I totally forgot my wallet in the car because of my high.

... yeah. Uh. WILL GET IT TOMORROW! :DDDDDD

This totally makes up for the crappy presentation I did for French class \o!


EDIT: And I managed to beat the rain. Ahahahahahaha! It just started raining again...
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I'm totally trying to get over the nervousness. *shudders*

See. I don't get why my friends and family get so wracked up with nervousness when they take me driving. I'm the one who's driving and I'm the one who has control of everything and I'm the one they're all passing judgement on. It's not fair that they act all overly dramatic about it but if I were to do so, it would freak them out even more.

*sighs*

Yes. Patrick took me driving today. For a whole hour, pretty much.

Didn't go far, but yeah.

At first, he wanted to have me drive on residential streets, depsite my going, "Um... maybe we shouldn't?" Eventually he came to the decision, "Okay, roads are not wide enough," and was going to go to the middle of no where to have me drive, but when I noticed that we were pretty much on a straight two-laned road in the boonies, I told him that I was able to drive.

And I was. I drove at speed limits between 15 and 55. Uwaaaah.

My turning still leaves much to be desired, though. Sometimes I don't slow down enough, sometimes I turn too widely, sometimes I turn too close to the edge of the road. *sighs*

The only thing I have going for me, really, is the fact that cars in the other lane passing by do not bother me. As I told Patrick, "As long as they keep on their side, I'm totally cool."

But we haven't even hit on reversing or parking or driving in the town or anything like that. Of course not, because this is pretty much the first of my lessons with Patrick, so... yeah.

Still. After the residential street disaster (note: please do not yell at me to stop when I'm driving. Instinctive reaction = put foot down and sometimes I do that when my foot is over the gas pedal, so... yeah. don't do it), we switched seats back and I was kind of holding myself with my arms crossed over myself and keeping myself close together. Then I said to Patrick, "It really doesn't seem likely that we're going to get me my liscence before next year, does it?"

Patrick just kept his eyes on the road and said, "Next year? I was planning on being at that point by Christmas."

Which made me laugh.

Ahaha... it really doesn't seem likely that I'll be that good of a driver that quickly, so... not until next year, I'm thinking. And that's fine with me.

Also... I love that Kia Spectra (it's a 2006 model with over 37,000 miles on it). It handles very well and the brakes are awsum. Not only that but compared to the few cars I've driven... my parents' Monte Carlo, my sister's standard truck, etc... it's... just a lot better. Maybe because unlike the Monte Carlo, it doesn't have a long nose and unlike the truck, it's closer to the ground but not unbearably so for a tall person like me.

Saa...

Driving is nerve-wracking, but if I can get to that point... it'll make it all seem worth it.

But I still think Christmas is too soon to be thinking I'll have a liscence by.
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