A belated happy birthday to lwyn! Sorry I haven't been able to get you a gift yet ;;;

Anyway, Akon was fuuuuuuuunness in a shiny paper bag. I got to meet up with atoli, fyliwionvilyaer, ytak, Yume, and Mati! I also got to meet some cool peeps and whatnot and... got hit on twice on the same day, wtf. Fyli, this happened after you left, even ;o;

Beyond that though... am tired. Am also hungry but some thoughts stuck in my head make me feel too nauseous to eat.

Guys... am I some horrible person who is horribly unreliable to the point that people worry I'll make the wrong choice? Am I not smart enough, kind enough, thoughtful enough or just... something that makes people doubt me? It hurt so much when one of my friends said that to my face before... it hurts just as much as when people imply it, just telling me over and over when I tell them I'll be all right and will be able to handle myself with some help, "I just worry."

I know I'm not the fastest person out there, I'm slow as fuck in realizing somethings and I'm very childish in others. I am not, however, completely ignorant. So why is it that I'm still treated like I am? I know I have a lot to learn, I never denied that. I have a shitton still to learn and that's why I'm in no rush to make decisions about certain things.

So why does everyone and a fucking bag of chips insist that I've a limited time in the world and I should rush my decision anyway?
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I can never seem to actually SLEEP before a trip.

AM GONE FOR THE WEEKEND. AKON AND STUFF. SEE YA'LL MONDAY OR TUESDAY! ♥
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I wanna be at Akon. DDD: I WANNA BE WITH EVERYONE, DAMN IT! T___T!

But yeah...money is way low, I'm injured (WHY IS IT THAT IT'S JUST ONE SPECIFIC AREA THAT HURTS NOW?), and I have crazy relatives that I want to avoid.

But yeah...D: I wanted to chase ytak with handcuffs and stuff...and have atoli ride around on my shoulders, and...just a lot of stuff. DDD:

NEXT YEAR! DEFINITELY NEXT YEAR! I WILL PLAN BETTER AND I WON'T FALL OFF A DAMN HORSE! *shakes fist at Fate*


Anyway, enough with that rant.

...but yeah...I got nothing to say. >_< DAMN IT! I WANTED TO GO TO AKON! DDDD:!
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Phone Post


Yeah, well, this was posted last night but since I fail at hitting the proper number or something, it ended up being saved as a Private Post. But I suggest not listening to this phone post if you don't want to heard Jeva breaking down completely thanks to her grandmother and Aunt Susan.

Anyway, now for the more bad news:

Chances are very close to being that I won't be going to Akon, afterall.

Why?

Well, first there's the issue with my Grandmother and Aunt Susan that's not-so-well explained in the phone post.

Second, I fell off a horse today.

...yeah, I'm fine, but I'll be hurting for a while. I have a perscription for Vicodin--think that's what it is--that I can only take one every four hours. Haa~

But what makes my mom insistant that I not go to Akon was that when I was going to get Mom a Coke at Walmart, I ended up twisting my ankle almost 90 degrees and fell down--making me hurt more even though I had taken some Vicodin like...an hour beforehand. Waaaah ;_;

Luckily enough, I broke no ribs or anything--I landed on the right side of my upper back so yeah...ouchies. Instead, I've got like really deep-tissue bruises around my neck, my upper-right back, and the right side of my chest. So yeah...

...wish I could say that things will change, but I have no idea...sorry to disappoint everyone who was expecting me. D:

But for everyone going to Otakon: There is a chance that I'll be able to go there...though my mom will be against it some :D;;;;
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People going to Akon. I kind of need a favor.

...I need a floor to sleep on :D;;;

Yeah, see...I only have around $210 for the trip to Akon and whatnot and the Greyhound ticket will be $147, so that means I'll have $63 left for food and whatnot (hey, I survived on less last year). So yeah...anybody willing to take in a bum from Louisiana? I will shower love and...yeah...stuff :D I promise to be entertaining!

Not only that, but--rasgos_76? You still going, yes? You have my ticket? WHICH I WILL PAY YOU BACK FOR, JUST WAIT UNTIL I GET A JOB, JHUhsalhgfshguifhugipg! If not, I guess I could always just buy one for like $35 from sannask and survive on...$28. >_o;;; Will be stealing snacks and stuff, probably...

But yeah--JEVA IS GOING TO AKON EVEN IF SHE HAS TO STARVE AND SLEEP IN THE LOBBY OR SOMETHING, TOTALLY! :D!
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...no one ever listens to my phone posts. XD;;; It's because I babble so damn much.

Anyway. Yeah. Don't have to listen to that thing if ya'll don't want to. It was just me at 2AM, feeling wretched and...stuff. :D But all's well now~


Good news: Will be going into the Pizza place my pregnant sister works at to see if I can land a job there. The only thing that I worry about is whether or not I'll be able to get the job even when I'll be gone from June 8th-June 11th. D:

Bad news: I'm starting to think that Otakon this year is a no-go. 1) I need to save money to get a computer. 2) Yeah...need to save monies...

But I totally will keep trying to get enough monies to go because I want to go up to NY and hang out with Lion like I've been saying I'd do for like...MONTHS now, and I want to hang out with all my East Coast friends. D:

So...I guess we'll have to see >.>;;;


I think in a couple of days, I'll be making an Akon posts to solidify details and whatnot...because I think Sanna's giving me a ride to my grandmother's and...yeah...I DUN WANNA GO ALONE, SOMEONE COME WITH ME, PLEASE O GOD, DUN LEAVE ME WITH THE WOMAN ALONE! DDDD:!

But yeah~

Anyway, that's all for today--laters~
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So...next weekend. I have to go to Mississippi--home of my father's side of the family--for a family reunion.

Yeah. So ya'll may have me for a week or so before I have to disappear off the face of the net again.

Not to worry, though. I'll be able to go to Akon still!

But thing is...>.> My dad's threatened to ship me off with his cousins again...>.> And where do my cousins live? Panama and Honduras.

...and I don't know if my cousins (the sons and daughters and grandsons and granddaughters of my late great-uncle) will take me in or not to wisen up my Spanish or what...but this could mean that I may not make it to Otakon.

...sorry to disappoint, but...yeesh...if I have to choose between a con and seeing the world...? :\ Sorry, but maybe next year?

Hopefully before then I'll be able to afford that pretty, shiny $700 laptop me and Sam were gushing over the other day (or was that like a week ago? oh, well~).

So yeah...

And btw, if anyone's thinking, "Why the hell is she saying her dad's THREATENING to send her out of the country? Isn't that a good opprotunity?" Ah haha~ It is~ But I happen to be a person that...isn't very used to getting gifts or having good things like this come her way...so whenever people say that they want to give me something--to the point of yelling that they will do it no matter what because I object so much--I say that they're threatening me with kindness~ Like Sanna and that Bible...*sweatdrops* :D;;;;;;

So...that's the news for today! Am going to be taking my History 101 final at around 6PM today, so...yeah...and tomorrow I have my Trig final at 9:30AM and then I might be on the road for home around 12 or 1 PM. So around 3 to 5 PM I'll be at home 2 hours south of LA Tech campus and free to be with family and--OMG! LITTLE G-NAT! *SQUEEEEES*

And in other small news: I think I've picked a role I want to app for CFUD. Just have to finish another 3 volumes of this manga and maybe snoop around elsewhere for better characterization, but I think I can do fairly well with this character--hah, spazzy, clueless characters can sometimes fit me so well~

And that's all for now~



EDIT: Oh, I forgot to mention this, but...my dad will probably kill me for posting this if he sees--heh heh...--but my dear father is offically now an old man.

Nevermind the fact that he's always been kind of cheap, always corrects people's grammar and such, and always grumbles about "damn kids." No...this tops it all.

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My dad now has dentures.

...XDDDDD!
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I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU PEOPLE WITHHELD THIS FROM ME! FOR SHAME!

Now on to the squeeing:

...EEEEEEEEEE! PIANO SQUALL IS GOING TO BE AT AKON! ZOMG! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! *falils!*

...no, I've never seen Piano Squall before, but he's like zomgawsum because, yeah--PIANO SQUALL!


...yeah...done now...might edit to squee more later *is actually looking at what's going on at Akon 17 right now* |D;;;




EDIT: And now my inner-Star Wars geek comes out to play...

CHEWIE'S GOING TO BE THERE, TOO! ZOMG! CHEWIE! ♥!
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