6 1/2 hours till the New Year for me \o

And my mom, sister, and I made out like bandits at the liquor store >D Yeah, I got some pussy drinks like mojitos and margaritas, but that's mostly because yeah, still new to the drinking scene. But in addition to those?

80proof vodka. \o

... lemme alone.

My mom and dad and sister will be splitting a case of different varities of beer while I work my way through the pussy drinks.

And we will be watching The Dark Knight on my dad's big screen HD TV. Uhuhuhu...

So uh. Needless to say that I will not be online tonight and if I do pop on, I'll probably be anywhere from extremely tipsy to drunk.

Can has fun new years!

As for New Years resolutions... uh.

I'll think about those in the morning.

Later all!
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Making post now before I forget to because I've been meaning to.

I think I'm at a transition stage in life again.

Brilliant. This explains everything.

It only took me, what? 10 months to get what this was all about? Or was all that that started happening a year ago just the build up and now I'm finally near the end of it? Because that would be nice.

Before I get too far into that topic, lemme just say that today has been all sorts of messed up. Because the night before I, of course, couldn't sleep and thus didn't sleep and was awake from 9PM to 1:30PM the next day. Bad day was bad, is what I kept saying and yet it seemed like whenever something went bad, something else came along and made it better.

Like when I desperately needed caffeine and remembered I had to buy the $5 bass clarinet reed. BAM! $20 bill found on the floor. I go to English class and keep falling asleep during it and consider leaving at 1PM? BAM! Professor lets us go early--AT 1PM! I set alarm for 3PM, planning to give myself time to wake up but end up oversleeping. BAM! I was only asleep until 4:26PM, so had plenty of time to get to the band hall and start working toward my audition. Only I needed a reed and I left my locker combo at my dorm. BAM! Was able to buy reed and Bryant was there in the equipment room and thus was able to let me see my locker combo again. Was late for my audition and didn't get a chance to really look at my pieces. BAM! People went ahead of me and I was able to go in about three people later than I was scheduled, giving me time to rehearse a bit. Only I sounded like crap because the horn didn't like the upper-register and my reed was too hard. BAM! Mr. Gibbs filed down my reed some and I was able to play through my pieces (I HAD PLAYED THE SLOW ONE LAST YEAR EVEN!) without much trouble!

A-and just on and on like that today. It's... been fairly interesting in that regard!

And well... the whole understanding that I really am at a transition phase goes back to my counseling session wherein I started talking about things with my counselor-dude, assuming we'd already talked about it. But no. We never talked about those kinds of things. But I have talked about them elsewhere. On my journal, to my friends. But even if I was already talking it out with people, I wasn't really... acknowledging it, I guess you could say.

And yet two days of sleep deprivation, caffeine, some cookies, and an impeding meeting with the judiciary committee tomorrow about the alcohol-in-the-dorm incident is what takes me to get it?

... or maybe it was just conversation with a few people.

I dunno.

I'm not sure if I like the person I'm becoming or if other people will like this person I'm becoming but I think I've been holding back on the reigns ever since I noticed it coming months ago and it's probably been the thing that's ended up hurting me a lot in recent times.

Maybe.



And now that I'm done barfing this out at you guys... I dunno. Go play and spam or something in the comments. *shoos you off*
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Yesterday was interesting.

Did my game-day band activities (i.e. awake from 7:30AM to 10PM doing band things and then not sleeping until after midnight) on 3 hours' worth of sleep. Brilliant job, me.

Not only that but I may have gotten in trouble with the RAs in a guys dorm on the account of having alcohol present. Uh. Pretty sure it was just scare tactics with a first strike, but yeeeeeah. No, I'm not likely to drink in a dorm again (because they have me down as doing it once before) and yeeeah, no. Nothing happened. It was just us sitting around and drinking and chilling but apparently we were noisy and it was midnight so they were going to kick the girls out (boo to curfews!). They also made the guys throw away the beer (which I was not drinking as I hate the taste of beer) but they didn't find my smirnoff in the closet. This tells you how serious they were about nailing us about it--i.e. not at all. Otherwise they would have turned the place over.

Meh. It happened once. Won't be happening again. I am not that dumb, kthx. Also, let it be noted that I did object to drinking in the dorms--sneaking in small quantities of alcohol for private enjoyment is one thing. Social drinking? Noooot likely gonna work. Dunno why I went along with it. I blame the lack of sleep and easy enabling since I was brainded and wanted to get a small buzz (which I did--1 1/2 smirnoffs makes me relax and happy).

Beyond that, I slept from... maybe 2AM-ish? to about 3:30PM. Mmmm, sleep~

( Cut for dreamscape things--MAY OR MAY NOT BE TMI, KTHX )

Yeah. I've already gone to the caf and got some beef and mashed potatoes with gravy and a salad so I am good and stuff for now. *thumbs up*

Also, contemplating possible travel plans. Hey you guuuuuuys. Wanna talk that stuff out with me if you want me to to come visit? I think I might have a plan involving visiting the PNW but with a layover time period in Iowa long enough to hang out with Sara and Andrea (and possibly other Iowaners + Heather if possible?). But uh. It really depends.

... I need to poke my sister Shorty and ask her if she and my dad can pull together to get me a shiny new laptop. She said she was willing to but I had other ideas in mind at the time and said she didn't have to. I r fickle person, inorite? I can always point out the fact that Patrick got Foon/Shiz's top-of-the-line laptop for only around $900. And considering I used $1400 to pay off the laptop that was in Shorty's name...

Stuff to think about in any case!

Saa...

I r still tired atm. Mrrh *snugs with someone*
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First thing I see on my flist is that Paul Newman's dead.

... sad in the faise man.

I need to get a copy of Cool Hand Luke to watch now. :<

In other news, I am doing my part in being a little more delinquent than I usually am (shhhhh pretend I'm not 21). Small social gathering later tonight which will involve alcohol. So. Yeah. Don't worry, I promise that I will not be a wild child (as if I could. ah hah~). But so you guys know why the hell I won't be on the interwebs at night like I have been for the past... week.

Beyond that, Lean Cuisine's chicken chow mein is actually pretty good. I was really surprised. *isn't much for TV dinners*

And uh...

I really have nothing to talk about. I love everything right now except for the fact that Paul Newman's dead. Baaaaaaaaaaw.
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I am in the middle of a good buzz.

Yes, I am tipsy, why thank you.

And no, not drunk. 3 Smirnoffs is not enough to get me drunk, lightweight that I am because I hardly ever drink.

Either way, my sister B is awsum and win and we played pool and all was rainbows and sunshine. And now I'm debating writing a fic or playing a video game. Pleasant buzz is pleasant and god I wish I was in this good mood more often.

... this is why I don't permit myself to do these kind of things very often. It feels too good. Damn easy addictive nature. Boo.

Yes, I'm scared of alcohol the same way I'm scared of pain meds. Blaaaaaaaargh.

'm kinda bored and worried that if I mention that I'm tipsy people will start yelling at me to go to bed. I'm not tired and my brain is wired. I should write something to get it out...

Birthday was fun and interesting. First half was spent babysitting. Then people came over and it was love, even though I mostly sat off to the side watching it all. I like that sort of thing. It's fun and interesting and cake. We had cake and ice cream. With sprinkles.

And it was because of today that I realized how much I missed my freshmen friends from high school who... are no longer in high school.

Baaaaaw.

I think I might call it a night within an hour, maybe. Saa. Might write something before then, maybe. Who knows?

Love you all~ Thanks for all the well wishes on my bday!
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Well, I'm less high than I was for one thing. The pain was just really bad yesterday and... I kind of overdid it in chan and stuff. Learned my lesson!

Ended up waking up and then falling asleep for 3 hour intervals last night, though, and one time, around 5AM, I woke up in a lot of PAIN and swollen cheeks and not enough ice. Cried on timmesque a bit (s-sorry, Oz, ilu ;;b), like... clung and whined in chat while really having tears in my eyes IRL because the painkillers were slow to kick in and stuff but yeah, it got better, I passed out again.

And now I'm more awake and sober than I was yesterday, one of the stitches came out, completely helping relieve some of the pressure building up in the right side of my face and yeah. Sanna and I are making more jello. With fruit in it. Omnomnom.

I miss real food.

Currently waiting on more ice to be made in the fridge so I can have my ice pack back. And today, I'll hopefully not be needing more than one painkiller at a time. One cracky session of being annoying in chan is enough for me, although quite a number of people said they took it as entertainment.

... what was some of the things I wrote in chan, anyway? *scrolls up to look quickly*

Huh. Already cleared that part. I remember I wrote a parody of the "Because I Got High" song.

... anyone have the logs from that chat?
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HI GUYS, I'M HIGH!

COME GET HUGS OR PROMPT ME FOR WRITING THINGS SINCE I'M NOT ALLOWED TO RP AT THE MOMENT~



W-well. AFTER I COME BACK FROM NAPS. \o
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