Even though I'm pretty sure LJ won't go down so easily, if something should happen, I will be over at Jevana @ Inksome. Yeah, I have a GJ and an IJ but I'm most likely to never post there, so...

And I need to back up my LJ just in case. Uh.

... which thing would be best to use for that?

As I said, I don't really think LJ will collapse just yet but this IS just in case.

And now I run off to band. Ta!
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Uhuhu. finally wrote that fic I owe espana. You can find it over at my Inksome though I apologize profusely if it sucks. That fic took me 2 hours to write even though that length of a fic usually takes less time. I BLAME WORRYING ABOUT DOING ANY OF THE CHARACTERS JUSTICE.

A-anyway, yeah. My Inksome's gonna be where I'll be stashing a lot of my newer writings. I'll be linking them over to my writing journal here on LJ most likely but yeah.

... I feel good about getting back on my feet with my writing. Makes me happy.

And I just used an emotional term. I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED NOW \o

And now I'm hungry. God my brother-in-law's cooking fish and omnomnom. I go eat and play on my sister's X-Box 360. RIGHT AFTER WRITING A COLD WAR FIC I GO TO PLAY FIRST-PERSON SHOOTER GAMES!

... I'm so going to be trigger happy.
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So. Apparently things are happening tonight as well. Wtf, I have a social life? Nah, it's mostly to do with my friend Patrick making up to my little sister not having the party last night and stuff. So we're probably going to go see a movie and stuff!

So yeah. UH. Dunno if I'll be on tonight. Definitely already tired and refusing to sleep or nap because finally my schedule, she is coming back under control after like... a month? of fuckedupness.

In other news, people keep talking about Inksome and, well... I ended up getting one. No idea if I will use it or not, but hey, always good to have a fresh slate if something goes wrong at LJ and also, some of my friends seem to have accounts over there.

So yeah. Jevana is where you can find me over there. I will be stalking people and probably doing other things on there because oh so shiny and new but again, we'll see!

And that's all for now. Man, am I tired. I want sleep. Need to stay awake. Not allowed caffeine or I'll be awake into all hours of the morning. HFJDasffdklsfj... I'll work through it ;o;
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My phobia with swallowing pills is slowly going away!

Mostly because one of the prescriptions that I got for when my throat was all torn up were these ITTY BITTY TEENSY TINY tablets which I was able to swallow whole!

And last night, I had trouble getting to sleep and my head hurt a bit, so I got my aspirin and WAS ABLE TO SWALLOW THEM WITHOUT ANY TROUBLE FOR THE MOST PART.

...

Sob.

I am ridiculously proud of myself, you have NO idea. I usually chew up those aspirin tablets. soooob.
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Hermit-mode* for the rest of the evening.

I think the football game burned me out.

Will be back to my normal schedule starting tomorrow~

*goes to laze around in dorm and order a pizza or something*



* what Jeva calls her "need to be alone" times where socializing becomes really really difficult.
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FRIEND CUT CURRENTLY IN PROGRESS.

If I knock you off my flist and you didn't comment before for some reason, then comment here and I'll add you back!
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I feel the need to make a political post here sooner or later. If only so people on my flist (who range from extreme left to extreme right in the political spectrum) can understand just where I'm at in the whole deal. For now, though. I'll simply say that, personally, I'm still on the fence about both candidates and actually wouldn't vote for either if the votings were tomorrow. That may change in the coming months, but I really really don't know who would be best for the nation as it is now and how it will be pretty soon if we don't get our acts together.

If you have your own view about the American politic game this year, feel free to share. But like in any public forum, please do not bash the other candidate. I don't care if you hate them and think they should burn in a fire. I do not want the wank and the clusterfuck on my LJ. Take it elsewhere. Similarly, I do respect the person now in charge of our country only because he's in charge of it. He fucks up, yes, but he's human. Get over it. Bashing does not do anything to change that he is still the president until the elections are over.

But beyond that, I do want to hear your opinions and whatnot. Feel free to link to news articles and the like about stuff like that. But please do make sure they're creditable sources or I just might right it off as plain, good ol' propaganda.



That said, my French book was insanely expensive. There is absolutely no reason my text book--which is probably less than 300 pages--costs over $100. That is just fucking insane.

But at least I have it now and ma prof won't get onto me about it. Yay for refund checks giving me monies to work with!

In other news, I may not be online until around 9 or 10PM tonight. WE SHALL SEE. Because ahahaha, anime club meeting and I'm fairly sure people will want to watch more Soul Eater and watching Soul Eater in large group always = A++.

... also shit, I need to withdraw money to pay for my membership fee. D:

Anyway, class now. Later all!
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Yeah, talking about my icon.

Guys, I'm bored.

Gimme some prompts.

Just words will work.

Also, if you haven't commented to stay on my f-list, please go over here and do that because after that post has been up for a week, I will be removing names of people who haven't commented.


ETA: ICON MEME!

Ganked from _secretpassion_

1. I'm going to talk about my 6 icons that were picked.
2. You reply to let me know you want to do the meme.
3. I pick 6 of your icons for you to tell me about in your journal.
4. Other people reply to you, causing the cycle to continue and icon!love all around.

( Answers to the 6 I was asked about... )

Belatedly, WELCOME TO THE NEW PEOPLE ON MY FLIST.

In light of the fact that I have so many people on my flist and on the account of the fact that some people who are on my flist I haven't talked to in a while... well... you guys remember, right?

FRIENDS CUT

Ahahaha, yeah. COMMENT HERE IF YOU WANT TO STAY ABOARD THE SSINANE (yes, not insane, it's already got two S's at the beginning shhhhh).

As for the new people (who don't have to worry about the friend cut), this journal mostly consists of me babbling about everything and nothing. Anything from school to work (when I have a job) to failship to relationships to family and then all the way back again--anything and everything will be touched on. WARNING: THESE POSTS CAN GET LENGTHY, FEEL FREE TO COMPLAIN AND ASK ME TO LJ-CUT. This includes touchier things like religion, politics, and other things that make people want to jump up and bite someone.

I encourage DISCUSSION about said topics because I am a person who is completely curious about everything (THERE IS A REASON I PLAY THE MAD SCIENTIST), so no trolling allowed. Arguing and bickering and such is totally cool. But I will monitor the situation and if it gets out of hand, I can and WILL lock the comments and tell you to take it elsewhere.

My journal. My rules.

But I highly doubt that anyone will have a problem with that so, let's all be friends and share the love of the newly friended! ♥
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Can has raburabu_mysis. May or may not comment with said account in this LJ. Just a head's up.

Yes, the whole apping thing was another factor for last night's post. Like I said. I was being hormonal.

In other news, I have around 7 job applications to fill out.

... *starts working on those*
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Especially those of you I usually communicate with outside of LJ.

I am being antisocial. And will probably continue to be so for another day or two... maybe until Monday. I have no idea.

This does not mean, however, that I will not check up on my LJ and post and stuff.

It justs means that I won't be convoing often outside of my own LJ.

So.

Yeah.

This is me, recharging from having to socialize for... well, I can't remember the last time I was antisocial to this point.

Meh.

Anyway, talk to you all later!

Love,
Jeva
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Okay.

So.

Had a break down today at work.

Thankfully Andrea was the only one around at the time.

And yes, it involved last night's wonderful mess.

Really should learn to keep my mouth shut.

But I did try to explain things.

You guys understood what I was saying right?

No one's to blame for anything that may be psychologically wrong with me.

Events are to be blamed. Memories. Snapshots in time that I don't quite understand because I only getting one side of the fucking story.

The story seems a lot worse when you don't understand the other side.

So I guess I can see why my parents find it so easy to believe that I am accusing them of everything.

Beloved parents on mine: None of it was your fault. And if it was--then it was the whole of the family's fault. Including myself.

So stop trying to guilt trip me into bending to your ways.

The post will remain.

I will not lock it.

And I will not shut down my LiveJournal.

This is my domain. Not yours.

Stay off the fucking grass and we'll get along fine here.

I do not like hiding things. I never had. I hated that unspoken rule that taught me not to speak to others, to not rely or trust them.

And you know... I was always the obedient child, wasn't I?

I try hard not to make waves, but this whole thing...

You can't tell me to shut down my LJ and expect that I will agree.

This is my place. Not yours.

These are my thoughts. Not yours.

These are my friends. Not yours.

If you have a problem with that and still want me to get rid of all of this, then damn well do it yourself because I ain't budging.

And in light of all of that: No, this rant was not because of the mother-unit.

Didn't I mention?

Today's my parent's anniversary.

And I, disobedient and troublesome child that I am, ruined it.

So said my father to me on the phone while I was at work today.

But I won't get into that.

Not any further, at least.

Just know that I am my own person. I'm an adult. Please remember to treat me as such, even if I am young.

I'm tired of being pushed around. That doesn't gain any respect. I respect you already. What more do you want from me? You can't keep me. Quit trying to.

And of course, this makes me sound like a horrible daughter, essentially telling her parents that she doesn't want them in her life. But that's not true. I want my parents in my life. I just don't want them expecting me to continue to bow to their wishes just because I am their daughter.

This LiveJournal will stay up.

And that is that.
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ETA: Comments are frozen. No more. I said I didn't want this to happen, and it did. That's enough. No more bad-mouthing and no more finger-pointing from ANY of you.

FINAL CALL FOR ADDRESSES SO I CAN SEND OFF CHRISTMAS CARDS.

YES, THEY WILL BE SNAIL-MAIL.

NO, I'M NOT GOING TO BACK OUT OF DOING IT THIS YEAR.

YES, I HAVE CARDS READY AND WAITING.

IN SHORT, IF YOU HAVEN'T GIVEN ME YOUR ADDY OVER HERE IN THIS POST YOU ARE WRONG.

... and that's about all I have to say.

Tomorrow will be another day to get things done, and this time not while I'm sleep deprived. Yes.

Also I've already gotten gifts from Candy and Heather and now there is a package sitting in my P.O. box. Was unable to get it today because P.O. box services were closed, but will be able to get it tomorrow after French.

So, to whoever sent me something: I WILL BE LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS GIFT! ♥
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HAY GUYS. WAVE AND SAY HI TO MY PARENTS WHO HAVE BEEN READING MY LJ LATELY.

ALSO.

WHY DO THEY BOTH PICK THAT ONE TOPIC ABOUT ME BEING UNCOMFORTABLE AROUND A GUY?


EDIT: I'm talking to my mom on the phone~ Whee, gossip~
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YES. I AM MOVED INTO DORM.

MY KNEE HURTS LIKE CRAZY.

MY HEAD HURTS, TOO.

ALSO, MY FEMALE BODY IS REMINDING ME THAT I HAVE ANOTHER 2 1/2 DAYS BEFORE I CAN START NOT HAVING MY STOMACH HURTING.

AND I SMELL OF GRIME AND SWEAT AND B.O.

BUT I AM IN THE DORM WITH INTERWEBS.

FEAR ME.


... *passes out*


EDIT: *revives* Yeah... I'd like to thank my friends Sara and Patrick for the majority of the helping with the moving process. Thanks also goes to Derek, Toni, and Jeremy. Who are awsum. Also, Derek is an awsum VP to my P of the anime club in that he talked with our club sponser about new plans and stuff. More on that later. But anyways, yes! Much love to them! It pays to have a ton of guy-friends sometimes.

In case you all want to know, I am now living on the 3rd floor of a dormitory that has no elevator. Yeah. and I have at least 1 1/2 times more stuff now than I did when I moved out of the basement of the same dormitory 2 1/2 months ago. Because yeah.

Severe and honest to God love goes to Sara and Andrea for putting me up for the summer. Lot of stuff happened and was so glad for it. Got a job, got to do things for myself. Got to actually be away from home during the summer... just something grand that I probably will never be able to pay them back for but still...

Uwaaah... so tired that I'm starting to babble and not make sense. I should get a shower. Patrick said he was going to cook me an awsum dinner as a late bday gift and stuff. So yeah. Need shower. Too tired to move.

... decisions, decisions.
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STRIKETHROUGH '07 ISN'T OVER YET!

WARN THE FANDOMS, THE RPs--FOR SMUT'S SAKE, HIDE THE CHILDREN! WE'LL NEVER HAVE A NEXT GENERATION ANIME-LOVING POPULACE AT THIS RATE!

*is, in fact, AMUSED at how messed up LJ/6A are for doing this right before Potterpocalypse--yes, Jeva loves it when the population cries out against tyranny!*


EDIT: Ho? This is interesting.
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Okay, so I'm about to head off for home. Shannon's wedding is tomorrow, so I'm spending the weekend back at home. Yeeeeah.

Anyway, so. Yeah. That's where I'll be. Dunno if I'll be able to even keep up with the attempt of making 1 post per day but we'll have to see.

Also, about the maybe bewilderment going on about when I said about my financial decision... eh. You know what? I said it works for me. So. Even if I have to explain myself blue, not much will change my mind to change what I'm planning unless I figure for myself that it's not really working. So far it is thought, so...

Guys, just be happy for me that I'm taking care of my money and am saving money and such. I know it probably boggles a lot of ya'll's minds because... well, no offense, but a large majority of you on my f-list are from the upper-classes. Yeah. Maybe only lower-middle class. But I've never really even been that for a long time. So... I dunno. Maybe that's part of the understanding issue? If not, then obviously, I'm a very complex and insane person and it's probably best to just leave me be until I ask for help, kay?

Not that I'm upset about the comments or anything! I'm still just a bit surprised by some of the comments I got and stuff...

Anyway, so yeah. This is NOT directed to any one person. I am NOT upset. I'm just telling it how it is. I don't mean any offense by any of what I've said here. If you take it as insulting... well, I'm sorry? There's not much I can do about that since I didn't mean that way in the least.

Okay. So now that we've addressed that issue, I need to call up Patrick and get him to pick me up so we can begin our journey for home. Haa... so much happening this summer, it's crazy.

If any of you need or want to reach me, just txt or call me on my cell. I get free incoming. And if you don't know how to contact me, there should be post with the tag "info" or "contactinfo" or something like that. It's specially f-locked, though, so if you can't find it, you're proooobably not on the list.

So. Off I go! Later all!
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But I'm about to take off and I wanted to announce that I have swapped out icons. NEW ICONS, PEEPS. OH YEAH. SRSLY 106 IS NOT ENOUGH ICON SPACE! UWAAAH!

BUT I HAVE LOTS OF BEAUTIFUL ICONS. BECAUSE. YOU KNOW. I'M AWSUM LIKE THAT.

SO YEAH. JUST RANDOM CAPSLOCK ABUSE TO TELL YOU ALL THAT I HAVE ABOUT 13 NEW ICONS WHICH ARE ALL FURUBA. FURUBA IS PRETTY, YO!

UWAAH! PRETTY ICONS!

Okay, running off now! Later, gators!
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Okay, so. Wednesday I worked from 11 till about 5. And Thursday I worked 10 till 5. Totally conked out around 6:30 along with Sara and Andrea. We were all out of it.

Today, only worked from 11 till 2. Yay, almost 3 hours of work~ So far, that's 15 hours of work this week, and Monday I should have another 11 till 2 shift. Funness~

Besides that... yeah. Mostly zonked out, which is why I haven't updated in a while. I know, I suck.

Tomorrow, Sara and I will be getting up around 10 or 11 and then heading to my home to visit the folks and stuff. Should be... interesting. I'm a bit nervous since Sara's never met my folks and have only heard my horror stories of life at home. Eh... should be interesting, like I said.

Anyway... some of you guys have been having very rough times. Seriously, even though I've been working a lot, I have Saturday and most likely Sunday off. CALL ME if you really need someone to talk to. I mean it. And if you think this comment is directed to you, it is. Especially at least two of you on my f-list. Seriously. Give me a call. I want to help.

Besides all of that... Heather, I'll try to finish up that second part of Nightingale at least within a week after your Bday if I can't get anything out by Sunday. Yeah, I know. Promises, promises... but still, I'll try, at least.

Lessee... am I forgetting everything...?

Oh. I'm making a Needs and Wants list. So far, my Needs list is very short but still a lot to get done. My Wants, however... well, mostly it's books. If you have a book or a series of books you think I would enjoy (and let's face it, I'll enjoy quite a lot of things), rec them here with at least a sentence telling me why I'd like it. Include title, author, and genre if you can.

Anyway, that's all for now. And I say again to those who are having a rough time: CALL ME. My number is on that Contact Post I made a while ago. Feel free to call ANYTIME. I won't mind at all. SERIOUSLY.

Later, ya'll.
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I'm not going to be cooped up this weekend.

Tomorrow, I shall be hanging out with my crazy but lovable friends Derek and Toni (and whoever else will be there), watching anime and being idiots. Let the good times roll.

Then tomorrow night, I will get to doing a small bit of research for my Spanish presentation which is due on Monday. Have to get a Latin American country's traditional song and dance. So... yeah. Funness. Have to speak entirely in Spanish, too, blech.

Then Sunday morning, I will drag my ass out of bed around 9AM and try and see if I can't get an exercise regimen going. I've failed multiple times in this endeavor, but I think I'll stand a chance this time because ahahahaha! I'm going to get things done for once! ... plus, I'm sick of my fat thighs and flabby belly. Maybe if I start something like running every morning, I'll be able to get in shape. I feel entirely pathetic right now in the health department.

So, I'll be taking it slow. Every morning from Sunday on, I'll be getting up early to work out. However, I'll need to build up my stamina for running, so I'll only go to the track near the football stadium on Sundays, I think. The rest of the week I'll spend jogging around campus or something. Have no idea how long I should run for, however. Sunday's the day to find out how out of shape I am.

I know this much, though: I am not going to be able to even run 1 lap around that track. But hopefully, before Fall, I'll be able to run 4 laps--equivalent to a mile, I do believe.

Some time this summer... whenever I start feeling more comfortable in my own skin and whatnot, I'm going to blow a bunch of money on getting some good swimwear. Yeah. I was on the swim team for 4 years in high school and before that, I was on a kiddy swimteam when I was around 10. So, I know what's needed for good racing and endurance suits and whatnot. Mostly, Speedo has quite a good quality to its products, even when they're expensive as hell. Still, having at least two suits (which I will have to decide upon whenever I get up the nerve to spend this kind of money--i.e., whenever the Subway on Tech Dr. opens again and I'm able to work), a pair of sandals that I can wear in the nadatorium (around $30 bucks), 2 pairs of goggles (the pair I'm looking at appear to be around $30 each), and 2 latex racing caps ($9 each). Grand total minus the swimsuits (because I won't make that call until I have an income): $100. ... yeah. That is a lot. But yeah... :/

... very expensive and all, but they'd last me a good while and hey, I'd love to get back to swimming. Even if it means risking running into Clint every once in a while--which I supremely hope I won't. I haven't seen him since this Winter and I like it that way. But... yeah. He's a swimmer. Loves to swim. Loves to work out. Ugh. Wish me luck in avoiding him!

Okay, back to my weekend schedule--after running around track, I'll cool off by walking to breakfast and then, after eating a relatively small meal I will not gain my weight back after I exercise. I will not gain my weight back by eating twice as much as I need because I "feel like it", I will head back to my dorm, get a shower, and chillax while reviewing French (hopefully during this time, I'll be able to record the voice post of pronounciation that some of you are asking for--or at the very least, see if I can't do a nifty little trick that will help us all).

Aaaaaaaand... hopefully, I'll be able to keep up with this pace I've set myself on. At the very least, I'll be able to fall back on any of these new things as a way to cope with whatever stress I may or may not get down the road. So yeah.

... wish me luck?
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