( SPOILERS GO HERE )
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Aahahhaa. Yesterday was interesting. WORST NIGHT EVER. CURSE YOU, LAST-MINUTE APPING.

Yeah, uh. Yesterday pretty much was class, taking a nap for 2 or 3 hours, and then arriving late to the induction ceremony thing for the French National Honor Society--WHICH I AM NOW A PART OF, GG, ME.

Then I went back to my dorm and ahahaha, totally didn't get anything to eat, but that's okay because Sara was hungry too, so we went out and got some food at Waffle House and then some ice cream at TCBY. THEY HAVE WAFFLE CONES THERE, OMG. *o* And we hung out and watched the dub for Code Geass.

Guys, this is seriously the best dubbing job I have seen in a LONG time. It doesn't make me cringe, it keeps my interest, they have INFLECTION in their voices, they have DYNAMICS in their voices, they kept the whole opening in original Japanese, they kept all of the original sound effects.... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Some people seem to not like Johnny Bosch Young doing Lulu's voice but I think he'll be win at it. the first episode isn't much to go on, but yeah. Also, Lloyd wins hands down. Boo to anyone who hates his dub voice. It fits him. XP

And after all of that, I finished reading a manga I've been marathoning since Thursday and... yeah. Last minute app, lolz.

AND WHEN I SAY LAST-MINUTE, I MEAN THE SAMPLE POST WASN'T WRITTEN UNTIL 30 MINUTES BEFORE THE SUBMISSION TIME SLOT WAS OVER.

S-sobs.

never again will never do that again i dun care what anyone says no more marathoning and then apping lastmoment sob

And now I laze around on my day off. |D
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Yes, my sleep schedule has been fucked up for a while. Averaging about 5 hours a night... maybe 4. But hey, I got a 2 hour nap in around 8. So what does that matter?

Anyway, I totally blame rhymed for getting me into Baccano!

Which is why I'm sporting a very fashionable icon at the moment--you know you love the crazy man covered in red, yes. ♥

In addition to that, I wish to promote this series by showing you all this fun little amv I found! I think it suits the series rather well! And without any real major spoilers, as well!



And with that, I'm turning in for the night, like I said.

... for some reason I'm hungry as heck but I ate two six inches today. Well, one six-inch and half of the other. Along with soup and a cookie and then a blueberry cream-cheese danish whenever my stomach was in knots around 10...

I'm ttly healthy.

Anyone wanna question that? *smiles sweetly*
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Getting up this morning was haaaaaaaard...

And now I'm pretty much awake and ahahaha... why are things so difficult right now~

I think Creative Writing wakes me up more than Chemistry, though. Actually Chemistry always threatens to put me to sleep :/ I... used to enjoy science more than I do now. Wonder what happened...

In other news, Jeva may or may not be a little on the crazy side and pretty much reading whatever manga series she hasn't read but has heard about so... uh...

This past week I have read:

- Air Gear 1- 183
- 07-Ghost 1 - 9 scanlated with 10 and 11 translations
- DOGS Bullets and Carnage 1 - 26
- Bleach 160-something - 215-or-wherever

Ahahaha...

And I've also downloaded Get Backers 1 - 21, s-so...

And Sara showed me this anime called OverDrive which is... about... BICYCLING.

Start singing that Queen song!

I like to ride my BICYCLE!
I like to ride my bike~

And yeah... I've gotten recs to watch Baccano (seventy years and a guy named Jacuzzi, how can I say no to this rec?) and I need to read Reborn, apparently.

And well...

Any other series you guys got to reccommend?

And I should update my list of anime and manga I've watched and read...

... well, since I have nothing better to do for the rest of the day~ *goes to work on the dorkiness*


EDIT: List of manga I've read is pretty short. :<

( List goes here. )

May add other titles if I can remember more...

... I wonder how many of them involve shounen retards to some level or another...
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Wow, updating at 4AM. Go me~

Anyway, now-yesterday was some kind of speshial.

At 2AM, my eldest sister called and we chatted for about an hour and a half, catching up on what was going on, plotting things for the future, and just mocking and teasing each other like good sisters do. I really want to go back home to visit soon, because I really don't like being away from my sisters so often, if I am to be truthful with myself. I really do miss them. Especially whenever there's things going on and I'm not around...

I finally crashed around 6 or 7AM, expecting to get up at 10AM and get ready for work. Smart me called Andrea ahead of time and I was informed that it was too slow for me to come in, so I had the day off. Joy~ Except this means my paycheck on the 19th will be pretty small. Unless I work a lot next week. Ah well.

Went back to sleep--or not.

My mom called and we ended up talking for about an hour as well. It's always fun when my mom and I get to babble at each other about things. Even if we end up disagreeing on key issues, we still kept it pretty light hearted and it was all on a good, friendly note. So yeah. It was fun~

And when I hung up with her, I went to lie down to sleep--

Only my little sister called me, asking if I had given Mom information she needed if little sister wants to audition for the band at Tech. I confirmed that I did, reassured her that we would get all of this done, and because she was in PE, she had to go pretty quickly.

So I crashed--

But right before I did, Candy txt'd me. Lolz. What is this? Some sort of keep-the-Jeva-awake-on-her-day-off ping that my friends and family have? I seriously found it amusing today rather than annoying like on Wednesday. But yeah. I got thwacks'd and bonks'd for having only gotten 3 hours of sleep-ish and then I drifted off to sleep after texting back some gibberish~

And slept all the way to 4PM, when I woke up with my arm over my head and lying on my back somehow. I don't usually lay on my back and having arm over my head. Ugh. It was all numb and took a while to get the blood circulation going again. Ahahaha...

But yeah, played around online, talked with Heather in txt and then on the phone, and after I whined more than once about being hungry around 6PM, she told me to go shopping. So... around 7PM, Sara and I went to Walmart in her ZOMG FIXED!CAR. There I bought some groceries--you know, typical turkey meat and bread and cheese, some fruit (ate all the strawberries already >.>;;;), some tostidos with some salsa con queso, some grapefruit juice (oh, hush it Candy and Heather, that stuff is the shiz, man!), and a turtle pie. Tuuuuuuuuurtle piiiiiiiiiiie~ Om nom nom...

Sara picked up some new windshield wipers and a new steering wheel cover thing~

Then I was all, "Wanna go to Wendy's~ Wanna go to Wendy's~" So Sara took me over there and I got 2 homestyle chicken sandwiches along with fries and drink and it was om nom nom, except I forget to ask for no condiments and to add cheese but oh well~! It was still pretty good--god, I love their chicken sandwiches...

But yeah. best part? Some little girls randomly came up beside where Sara and I were sitting in Wendy's and told us that they were part of some church group thing and they were on a scavenger hunt and they had to ask a perfect stranger for a fry. Sara kind of sat there going, "... whut?" but I swear I stared at them like they were the cutest things I ever did see and, a heartbeat later, whipped out one of my fires and handed it over. OMG~ The little squeals they made over it was the best thing ever! I was beaming from ear to ear the whole time.

Afterwards, when they had gone, I just kept going on about how cute they had been~ Omg~ Socute~ I love kids~ Kids are like the best thing ever~ No one can change my mind about this~ I can even have love for the most spiteful kid out there just because I would find their spite adorable~ ♥

... I really do love kids. They're so... refreshing in a way. I love dealing with that sort of... newness. I dunno. Something about being around kids make me happier and more optimistic and willing to share more. Kids are just an inspiration for me--the future and all of that.

Saa...

And of course, Sara and I ended up back in my dorm where she watched 2 episodes of Spice & Wolf before we got stuck obsessively watching D.Gray-man because Sara is like... so far behind in what's going on in the series. And it actually showed me that I need to go back and read things in the manga from the beginning again. Thankfully, I have the first three volumes here on my bookshelf, so~

And yeah.

We managed to stop watching in time for me to write out the last of my 31_days themes for the month of February. Which is so very awsum. I've finally finished a project! How wonderful is that? I never finish projects! And I've finally managed to finish one! Sweet deal! I feel empowered!

And yet I know I'll get knocked on my ass sooner or later.

So yeah. That's what I've been up to~ Since then, I've been mostly fiddling around on the computer, not tired (I promise to be in bed before 6AM and that I will fix my sleeping schedule tomorrow night). Tomorrow, I have work from 5PM to 8PM, I do believe which yeah. Fun stuff~

Aaaaaand, I can't find anything else to babble about. Ahahahaha~

So yeah. Bit of a long post! Should LJ cut, but meh~ I'll do it later, maybe.

Hope you guys have a good weekend and all~
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I blame ehrenyu.

I just got done watching Goldenboy.

... god, I love the retards. ilu Kintaro, you pervert.

I have NO idea why I like the freakin' shounen retards. They're just the best things ever, I swear.

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♥

A-and now I should really go to bed.
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Okay, heading to bed.

Just wanted to say that Detective Conan movie 11 is KICK ASS. Go watch if you haven't already! I'm sorry, but I loved every bit of it. And really, the Agasa-hakase's Lame Riddle scene has me in stitches the whole time. Absolutely wonderful and so much fun. Kind of makes you go "D'awwwwwww" both for the ending before the credits and after. Socute. Also, sosad~

Okay. Now I will also post here that I have a deadline on the 21st. This is a deadline I will follow through with. Might be like all those school assignments and whatnot, but hey. Better last minute than nothing at all right? As for those of you who are curious about what I'm talking about: It's a surprise for those who care. And not so much of a surprise for the one who demanded for it. |D

So yeah. There we go.

Tomorrow, I'll be sure to bring more food to my dorm and stuff and make sure that I'm eating better so I don't have another incident like last night for a very long time. Mostly, I think it was overall the stress from work and maybe what my mother suggested in that it was probably the result of poor nutrition and dehydration. Because I run on sugar to survive sometimes for work and whatnot and sugar and those kinds of things aren't good for keeping hydrated. Especially for someone like me who risks diabetes what with it being hereditary in my family and all.

So yeah.

So much love for you guys. I'm sorry that I made you all worry, but I promise to do better from now on. And if something like this happens again, feel free to... I dunno, tie me up and force feed me food healthy food or something. XD

And love to Mom. Because even if I'm a retarded daughter that says and does stupid things, I still luv ya, Mom. ♥

So anyway, night all!
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Because zrana mentioned it the other day, I'm now watching Busou Renkin.

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Kazuki is such a retard. Why do I always like the retards? I need more retards in my life. ♥



EDIT: ... THAT'S IT. I'M CLEANING MY ROOM. *goes on a rampage on her unkempt room, yes!*


EDIT 2: ... trash pile near my fridge was over a foot higher than the trash can (which is about a foot itself) and uh... was on the floor around trash can as well as in said trash can.

I AM TTLY A CLEAN AND HEALTHY PERSON. I DID NOT JUST DISCOVER FOOTSTUFFS THAT GOT THROWN AWAY 2 WEEKS AGO AND HAD TO HURRIEDLY PUT THEM IN THE GLAD BAG THAT SANNA HAD USED TO BRING THE TOWELS OVER. NO. IN FACT, THAT BAG IS SO NOT FULL. I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT.

... I'm a horribly, horribly lazy person. *hangs head and sighs*
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Ahaha... some people said that Higurashi has made them kind of sad with the recent releases and whatnot and well.

... I just yelled at the screen, "OMG, STOP DOING THAT ALREADY, [insertcharacternamehere]. HOW MANY TIMES IS THIS NOW?"

I... couldn't really help myself. I felt horrible and sad and whatnot, but... I kind of laughed? Because it happened again?

I'M A HORRIBLE HORRIBLE PERSON, AREN'T I?

And now I'm off to bed!
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Hmmmmm...

*goes back to watching the second season*

Note: If you don't know what this is about, don't worry. Also, if you have an idea of what this is about, warning, this post may or may not contain spoilers in the comments.
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Even when work stresses me the fuck out and drives me crazy with the tons of hours or lack of hours or the customers or whatever else? I still love working at that Subway. |D My coworkers (especially the one's I've known for a long while) are the best peeps evar, rly.

Or at least, they are to me, anyway >.>;;;

Besides that...

( ZOMG SPOILERS FOR HIGURASHI )

Ahahaha...

I really do love Higurashi no Naku Koro ni~
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Watching Higurashi no Naku Koro ni and...

YES.

\o/

Although, I'm tempted to yell at Keiichi: "RUN. RUN FOR YOUR LIFE."

And I'm only on episode 3 |D

I LOVE THIS ANIME~ *glomps Heather for sending it to her*


EDIT: *just finished episode 4* ... OH, IT'S THAT KIND OF ANIME.

I'M DEFINITELY GOING TO CONTINUE WATCHING.

But now I have to get ready for work. X___x;;; *has been attempting to hack up her lungs for hours*


EDIT 2: *begins episode 5 just because she is weak to curiosity*

... THIS MAKES NO SENSE ANYMORE. I THOUGHT I MADE IT MAKE SENSE IN MY MIND. OI. OI. IS THIS JUST RANDOM OR SOMETHING. GAH. SOCONFUSED.

AND I HAVE TO WAIT 3 HOURS TO CONTINUE WATCHING IT. ARGH!
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APOLOGIES TO HEATHER IN ADVANCE. THIS POST CANNOT CONVEY MY WINNING OF THE WORLD WITHOUT THE ICON. RLY.



GUYS. GUYS. I HAD A TOTALLY AWSUM DAY.

See, see! Today I was woken up an hour earlier than I was hoping, feeling like I was drowning in mucus and everything, but I got over it because it was Derek whining for me to let him come over to my dorm and visit and hang out. But when I kept saying no, he babbled and let me babble about anime and the meeting tonight and stuff like that. So, yeah. Felt very happy about that wake-up and got about an hour more of sleep before I finally got up at 2PM.

Then I got dressed and went to my counseling session.

Luckily, my counselor-dude had a thing to go to by 4, too, so we agreed to end the session early. But we actually got really into things. Mostly, like my counselor-dude said, we're taking our time figuring out where I know I am or at least think I am before I can progress to where I should go. And... he keeps telling me I'm dynamic and interesting and apparently seemed very interested when I told him about some stuff--you know that stuff about getting people to play roles I can't fulfill myself I talked with you about, Candy? Yeah, that. That seemed to interest him a lot. Ahahaha.

And then we started going down the list of that Rate Yourself homework (which I remembered to bring this time) and yeah. Time ran out after the third one. Right before we left, though, I gave him print-outs of a couple of scenes from my story Minskir because he said he was interested in reading it to see what he could get of my thinking process from it. He was an English teacher. He can read between the lines, hopefully.

And yeah. Awsumness.

After that, I went over to Subway for the employee meeting and ahahaha... it wasn't that bad. And it definitely made me feel a lot better about having the cut in hours. Even if he did bring up the topic of, "Don't. Freak. Out. I promise you, it's not as bad as it seems. But do not freak out in front of customers," to which I rose my hand and went, "I-I won't do it again, I swear." And ahahaha...

But really, meeting made me feel a lot better. Jason is actually a cool guy when he wants to be. Thing is, he can also be an ass when he wants to be. Meh.

But yeah! I also got my schedule for the next two weeks again~

Days I work:

Tomorrow (10/4) - 8PM to close
Sunday (10/7) - 5PM to 8PM
Tuesday (10/9) - 5PM to 8PM ... which I traded in favor of the Monday I had but now I realize that I have band during that time, too, fuuuuuuuuuuck... why do I fail at life?
Thursday (10/11) - 8PM to close
Friday (10/12) - 8PM to close
Sunday (10/14) - 5PM to 12AM

Yeeeeeah. Sadly, the 10/11 - 10/14 hours go toward a different paycheck but meh. I'm slowly getting some hours back. I think Jason's trying to see what will keep me from over-doing it again so I won't freak out again. Really, I think the solution is simple: don't schedule me closing on Sundays. DX

But yeah. We got some commendments for having met our money and labor cap for the month. Apparently the store has a labor cap at 19%, and we got 19.00% which is win. However, he was miffed about the money situation because apparently some money's been going missing from the register via credit receipts and messed up drops and yeah. Jason's cracking down on that by saying only one person on the register AT ALL TIMES. Basically, no one but the one cashed-in can work the register. And the person at the register can't be the person in charge on that shift.

And yeah. Ahaha. That's pretty much all that he talked about besides scolding us, saying, "Things to call me for in the middle of the night: injuries, bleeding, death, accidents, fire, etc. Do not call me over mildewed mopheads." XD;;; I... had no idea what he was talking about until Mahogany sheepishly said, "I won't do it again."

And yeah.

I ALSO GOT PAID TODAY. HUGE PAYCHECK. BIGGER THAN I THOUGHT. $376.67! FOR 67 HOURS OF WORK. BOOYAH.

So yeah. Happy about that, I got a meal from Subway (because I hadn't eaten at all at that point and had the shakes) and got a ride over to GTM just in time for French.

And French was awsum, too. I UNDERSTOOD A LOT MORE THAN I USUALLY DO, WTF.

Also had funny scenes like someone asking if we could leave early. Dr. Dolly was all, "No, we won't leave early~" and I had at some point commented that I was sick with a cold, so another person spoke up that if they put me near her, we would get out early (Dr. Dolly is all paranoid about germs and sickness and whatnot). We all kind of laughed and I started inching my student desk closer to Dr. Dolly's desk, only to have her look to me, with some horror, and say, "No, no, Jazz! Regard la distance!" So I was nice and just laughed and backed back into my previous position.

But yeeeeeeeeeah~ I have another French paper thing I have to write due Monday. Yare, yare. I hate writing description in English and I have to do it in a foreign language? Maaaaaaaaan...

Right after French class, I went to hang out with Derek and Will up in the room that the anime club meeting would take place and yeah. Played around there for an hour until people showed up and we started the meeting.

You guys, it was so awsum. I... am so amazed whenever I go to these meetings now. SO MANY PEOPLE COME! I mean... just wow. And yes~ WE WATCHED 3 EPISODES OF GURREN LAGANN AND THE CLUB LOVES IT~ ♥ I personally cackled at the male-half of the club's reaction to Leeron. Kekeke...

In fact, Will told me that he tried to have the anime club watch it last year and I went, "Eeeeh? I don't remember you mentioning it!" and yeah, he just kind of went, "... you have a lot more charisma than I do," to which I said, "... no, I don't," and thus started the ever-continuing round of, "Yes you do," and "Nooooooooo. Liiiiiiiiiiiiies," and yeah. |D

B-but really. So awsum ;o;! P-people were actually willing to do things like watch Black Cat and fill out a survey for Funimation so we could get more free stuffs and yeah. Just... omg, you guys, the club is so awsum and I love it so much and people are paying their dues and just... omg. Love for the anime club and love for my officers and zomg IT'S GOTTEN SO BIG SINCE I FIRST BECAME A MEMBER.

... I also paid off 4/5 quarters of dues I owed |D;;;

BUT YES. THIS IS WHY I AM HAPPY.

COUSELING = LOVE.
WORK MEETING = LOVE.
FRENCH = LOVE.
ANIME CLUB = LOVE + GURREN LAGANN.

JUST... ♥!
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*looks at the time and faceplants self into pillows, moaning*

I still have band from 4:30 to 6:30... but luckily, it's like I thought. Indoor rehearsal. Yes. Please. Thank God.

I feel incredibly tired and incredibly sick. Soar throat, headache, stuffed nose which still somehow manages to get leaky, stomach that keeps going "HAY, FEED ME" while it's also going "GONNA THROW UP SOONER OR LATER, I BETCHA," and just...

Not a good day for me, no.

But I went to all my classes so far!

And I'll go to band too. Can't afford not to. Stupid jazz show. Stupid announcements. Stupid... bah.

But Heather~ I got your package~ Socute~ Also, kickass because I am now able to watch Kekkaishi and I have Tokyo Majin 1st season subbed so I can share it with the anime club at the meeting tomorrow~ Yeyness~

Also, am very much made curious by this other series you gave me. Huuuuuh...

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I feel siiiiiiiiiiiiiick. Wanna stay in bed and not move. ;o;
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Yes! I was emo and then people like candy__chan and rasgos_76 made me feel better and I ate sammiches, yougart, and drank Mountain Dew!

THEN I SAW GURREN LAGANN 27.

GNFJISFGKJSBSBSVSDDFCDSJHGFJDSVGNSKJDVnj WHY GAINAX, WHY.

AND NOW I AM HYPER AND ZOMG, WIN.

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ALSO, 'M NOT SIMON, HEATHER.
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Okay, yes, I should be in bed. No, I'm not tired. Yes, I saw the last episode of Darker Than Black. No, I haven't seen the last episode of Gurren Lagann AND THAT'S JUST NOT FAIR.

ESPECIALLY WHEN SOMETHING I THOUGHT WAS A CRACK THEORY BECAUSE I JUST HEARD SOMETHING WHEN WATCHING EPISODE 2 AGAIN (BECAUSE I HAD TO SKIP IT BECAUSE VEOH WAS BEING RETARDED AND THUS MISSED OUT ON SOME SRS AWSUMNESS) AND JUST... I THOUGHT IT WAS A CRACK THEORY AND IT MIGHT BE TRUE????

SOMEONE POST IT ON YOUTUBE OR VEOH SO I CAN WATCH IT ALREADY, DAMN IT. HELL, GIMME DIRECT DOWNLOADS, NOW.

... yes, this is how I'm dealing with my not-quite-emoness about work.
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I should have taken a few days off weeks ago. Yes, the Jeva is a moron. *sighs* Okay. Lesson learned. If boss gives you more than 24 hours a week--SAY NO. RAISE FUSS. DO NOT THINK, "YEY MOAR MONIES," BECAUSE YOU ARE WRONG.

Yeah, I'm having fun on my days off >.>;;

GURREN LAGANN. \o/

Which, now that my internet no longer hates me, I will finish off here in just a bit. Hiuhfjdsahgfdg--can't wait~ ♥

Also, Sanna, you asked for me to tell you when I called my dad about the eye doctor thing? Called him, asked him, he said Mom has all the info because it was mailed home so now I have to call Mom, get information, go to doctor that is available in Ruston and voila! The Jeva should be set for a new perscription!

... after, you know, three years of wearing the same pair of contacts--DO NOT ASK HOW I MANAGED TO KEEP THEM THIS LONG, THEY ALMOST GOT POURED DOWN A HOTEL SINK IN MISSISSIPPI ONCE.

Y-yeah.

... EPISODE 24, HERE I COME.
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IN SHORT:

GURREN LAGANN PWNS MY SOUL LIKE A THING THAT PWNS.

IT JUST KEEPS GOING AND GOING AND IS ALMOST SEAMLESS IN THE WAY THE PLOT MOVES--WASN'T SIMON ONLY 14 JUST A FEW EPISODES AGO. OMG.

WANT TO WATCH MORE BUT AM GONNA TAKE A NAP.

... YES, I'M SKIPPING PSYCH. NO, IT'S NOT BECAUSE I STAYED UP ALL NIGHT WATCHING ANIME, WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT.

But seriously, I haven't been able to do something this stupid in a long while~ And thanks to Jason making me take 3 days off, I'm able to do it. It's doing wonders for me relaxing really.

And yeah, yeah. Missing class = bad and this is the second time I've missed a class this week, but it's PSYCH, for goodness's sake. And I'll wake up from my nap to head to English and then band. Not missing any other classes this week--I need those days for whenever I'm SERIOUSLY stressed out.

... but I really, really want to watch the rest of the anime D: BADASS CAPE AND EVERYTHING. I WANNA WATCH >_<

But yeah, going to sleep, getting some hours under my belt, heading to English and then to band...

THEN I CAN WATCH THE REST.

And then I shall work on that French assignment due tomorrow.

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I ♥ VIRAL.


EDIT: ... you know, if I had glasses instead of contacts, I so would stay awake--CURSE CONTACTS WEARING OUT MY EYES AND THUS MAKING ME MORE EXHAUSTED THAN I'D LIKE.

... in fact, I'm really hyper right now. Sheesh~ How am I gonna get sleep at this rate?

You know, they said Albert Einstein only took like 15 minute nap throughout the day and didn't actually sleep.

Hm...

MY BRAIN IS FULL OF USELESS INFORMATION AND WON'T BE QUIET IMMA GONNA TRY TO LAY DOWN NOW THOUGH KAY.
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HEATHER, HEATHER. HAVE YOU SEEN EPISODE 9 OF TOKYO MAJIN? OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.
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You know.

The staying up way later than I should thing.

I think it's because I had to load myself up with sugar via soft drinks such as Sprite and HiC Fruit Punch, and Orange Fanta to keep myself going at work tonight... last night... this morning... whatever.

... could explain a lot about my insomnia but then again, no it doesn't.

Anyway, since I'm heading for dreamland now--not at all feeling mentally tired, but body is going, "CAN WE SLEEP YET? Y? N? YOU GET NO SAY IN THIS, PASS THE FUCK OUT ALREADY!" and well... yeah.

I'm... actually not sure why I'm updating my LJ about this since I know a large majority of you have already given up on my getting a normal sleeping schedual and whatnot--and the rest of you are probably going to still want to shake me senseless and well...

I'm going to get up around noon-ish tomorrow... today... whatever. So yeah. Even if I'm lacking of sleep, that's fine since I only have one class tomorrow and no work at night. This = good thing. Because I'll get my French done in time for my 5PM class, and then after class I shall be working on my English and Psych like I said I would.

... and I very nearly forgot yet again that I had rescheduled my counseling session for tomorrow, too. So... 3PM to 4PM I shall be getting counseled... or whatever... you know? That thing I did this past Winter and Spring that seemed to help loads? Yeah, that.

Then from 4PM to 5PM... I dunno... I guess I could go online and type up my French stuff to make sure I've gotten everything squared away and whatnot--since I'm hoping to not be tempted to get on the internets while I'm doing homework tomorrow until it's done. Which... will be harder than you guys can know. I have a problem with avoiding things. If it's boring, I avoid it. If it's tedious, I avoid it. If it's scary, I avoid it. If it's the opposite of what I think is right, I avoid it. If it's facing something I'd rather not, I avoid it.

Just how I am. Been learning to cope with it since this Spring, though.

It's a work-in-progress, definitely.

Speaking of WIPs, I so want to say that Zombie Loan will forever be somewhat Spanish to me now. Confusing for you guys, except then I explain that I watched the large majority of it with Spanish subtitles and actually understood over 3/4 of what I was reading in the subs. Yeah, I also had to listen to the Japanese and co-relate the Japanese to the Spanish which helped loads in figuring out the words I couldn't really get, but yeah. I like doing this. It's like contextual reading and listening practice. I think I can read a few words in a sentence and understand the gist of what it means in other languages. Speaking on the other hand...

Japanese is somehow vastly easier to deal with. Not that I can speak it at all, but yeah.

... need to watch something with moar Spanish and French in it, obviously. Though watching the Arsène Lupin movie over and over again would get a bit boring. Any suggestions?

And why am I babbling about this? Because this kind of realization made me happy. We all know that I think I royally suck at foreign languages, even though I'm majoring in two of them, dabbling in another, and am severely tempted to sign up for two more courses (Latin and German, anyone?--not that I'll actually go through with it... stupid shininess). Whenever I speak or even write something in another language, I feel stupid and feel like the people who can actually speak the language is secretly laughing at me and how childish I sound--this results in me getting flustered and upset because I'm thinking to myself, "Well, excuse me for wanting to learn your damn language! DON'T THINK I CAN'T HEAR YOU LAUGHING OVER THERE!" and whatnot, which makes a spiral, spiral, spiral that eventually gets me to the self-loathing state that you all just love to hear about and see, I'm sure.

So yeah. Um... feeling happy about how I'm finally able to understand the basics of Spanish (and French, too--had to watch one episode of Zombie Loan in French) without having to think so much--even though the conjugations and grammatical things just as verb tenses will always throw me off I think--English is bad enough with that sort of thing. Other languages? Bah. Especially French and Spanish--THEY'RE TOO DAMN SIMILAR, EVEN IF THEY DON'T THINK SO.

And uh...

I said I was going to bed, didn't I?

...

Ah, well. I'm thoroughly exhausted. Mentally, too, now. Which is... meh.

Je pense que je doive dormir maintenant. Si je ne peux pas le faire...

NO ES MI CULPA.

おやすみなさい！
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