Yes, because that's exactly what this will be.

I am SORE.

Yes. Am so not used to working 6 hours on my feet the whole time anymore. But that's okay, that's a GOOD thing. It means it doesn't happen very often, not since I've started working at Tech Drive. Because my manager is made of win and awsum and ho shit she's moving this May, isn't she?

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*SOBS*

Well, there's the whole thing with my friends moving away and going on to bigger and better things and I'm left... here. In the mudhole, waiting for my turn. Scraping and saving and skimping and hoping and dreaming and blaaaaaaaaaaargh.

I really hope I get at least one scholarship. Just one. I would die happy if I just got one of them. Please, please, please. I need to get out of here.

And I don't really know why I'm saying all of this except for the fact that I was reminded about all of this--Sara and Andrea moving, my having to stay behind and deal with a new manager, deal with a new system, deal with another year of hoping to get by and not have something horrible come up and bite me in the ass, deal with being stuck for another year...

Because as soon as my TOPS ends, I am getting out of here. I don't care how realistic that sounds. I want out. I need out. Someone get me out. I promise I make a area rug. Ask Sara and Andrea. *thumbs up*

But seriously. Am... really kind of getting more than a little scared about all of this. I need to move on in my life, but I can't because I need my education, I need the money I can get from the job I can get because I get my education. I'm bogged down in loans and I've no vehicle to just get out and GO somewhere...

I nearly cried tonight because I saw the number of sandwiches I sold tonight. Not because they were a terribly huge amount--hell, I've had worse at California. But... I dunno... was just the whole thought that if I can't get out, I'll have to keep doing this sort of thing over and over and Tech Drive can turn into another California when Andrea leaves and I don't want it to. I'd sooner quit. But I need the money and I can't quit unless I really can't stand the new manager...

I dunno. I'm tired... in the non-physical sense. Been spinning around in circles too much tonight getting everything done.

Of course, I had my manic grin in place whenever Andrea came to my rescue at 10:20 and helped me get closing stuff done. Manic grin isn't a nice grin. Manic laugh is even worse.

I chuckled once or twice.

I dunno.

I need to get out of here again. I think I wanna go home, even. I dunno. Just somewhere. Anywhere is fine at this point.

I hate feeling so stuck.

But enough of the woe-is-me.

The upside about tonight: 6 MORE HOURS GOING TOWARD MY PAYCHECK. BOOYAH.

Yeah, and with yesterday's hours, that's 12.

... that looks pathetically small when I remember that I used to work 30 hours a week over at California...

Another upside: I was able to get back to my dorm fast enough that I was able to post for 31_days for the 9th of March. Go me. I totally rock.

And btw, if you're a bit behind: I currently have a new writing journal. It's still in the works but most of the stuff is up. The only fandom missing is really my DC/MK fandom stuffs. And, you know, the stuff I've abandoned but are on FF.N or somewhere else on the web and linked in my Story Archive.

You can find this new journal at motsdejeva. Also, if you look at my Story Archive, you will notice that there are additions to it as well as not-working-links. This is because I have been editing and stuff. Also moving things from one place to another.

Yeah. Have been posting my progress for 31_days for this month and even have a post for last month. So ah... yeah.

And how have I been doing this month?

Let's see...

March 1st - 17 Going On 5
March 2nd - The Longest Night: Unspoken [Random Scene]
March 3rd - FAIL
March 4th - The Recounting of an Interesting Incident or Two
March 5th - Who I Am
March 6th - FAIL
March 7th - Of the Beholder - NSFW
March 8th - Caravan
March 9th - The Longest Night: Last Ditch Effort [Random Scene]

Not too shabby.

And well. I think that's all I have to say about that. Though, if you are interested in reading original fiction of mine, please do give a shout-out over in this post and I'll put you on the speshial flock for it.

... and now I've gone from seeming insane from over-thinking to pimping like a pimp.

Ftw, yo.

You know you love it.


PS - My back is in knots.

Daddy, if I go home this Easter, you give massage, yes? ;o;
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Yeah, uh.

Antisocialness.

Yesterday I mostly lazed around before going to work at 5PM. Closed last night, so got back to my dorm at 11:25PM and spat out this D.Gray-man fic for 31_days.

And today I will do the same thing most likely.

But yeah. Just thought I should post something. Also, am bored.
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Got bored.

Have an icon meme!

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EDIT: Also. Scene for 31_days:

Feb 10th - "And are for ever damned with Lucifer" (Murderer: The Hell of Our Own Making [Random Scene])
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Well, today's been fairly boring.

I should be relieved.

Worked by myself for about two and a half of the four hours I was at work. But it was fun. I really like working with Erica (despite the fact that I only worked with her for an hour tonight). She and I actually talk and stuff. Not like when I was alone with Curtis. He just did his stuff and I did mine, and I even pushed him to do other stuff--like we needed to prep tuna, 2 cambros of tomatoes, and chicken teriyaki. He seemed to want to ignore them, I asked him to do the tuna. He did the tuna, I put out the stuff needed to do the teriyaki and then the tomatoes. We went from there.

Yeah. I dunno. I felt like I had to get him to actually do some stuff. Not only that but he has the habit of dropping random things into the sink--which drives me crazy. Andrea, that guy I work day-shift with, and Erica all know not to do that with me. It drives me up the wall. Especially if it's a metal bowl that tuna was made in.

*hisses* RINSE IT OFF BEFORE PUTTING IT IN. GAH.

... and that doesn't sound right at all.

But yeah, pet peeves aside... to be honest, I dun really like him. Laterral (I... dunno if I spelled his name right) was an okay guy--I wanna work with him some time. Jeff is cool even though I had to work with him when the poor guy was going nuts trying to get 20+ footlongs ready for some team on a bus. (Was it the baseball team?)

But Curtis just doesn't make me feel all that comfortable. In fact, he didn't even feel like he was the one in charge. I ask him a question, he kind of stares at me and then shrugs without really giving an answer--NOT how an assistant manager should do. Sara, if you ever doubt whether or not you're good at being in command or not, ask yourself if you do this. Because ahahaha, you don't. End of story.

I dunno. I guess he's just the kind of person I can't click with. :/ Which is kind of sad because I click with all the other people I've worked with so far...

Ah well.

In other news, another day, another 31_days finished~

And for those of you who have been keeping up with my progress, here's yesterday and today's ficlet scenes~

Feb 8th - "Accursed be he that first invented war" (Murderer: First Offensive Front [Random Scene])
Feb 9th - "Yet let me kiss my lord before I die" (The Longest Night: End of Innocence [Random Scene])

Yeah.

And now I'm gonna work on my French some. Will be on for a while longer if anyone needs me~
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... you think you're in the clear and you've done everything you're supposed to and THEN it hits you that you forgot to study your French vocab and do those sentence exercises involving "celui-ci" and "celui-là"?

Yeah.

HA HA HA.

I fail at life.

*goes to work on French homework, cursing the fact that she will have to get up early in the morning to get it done as well--SLEEP? WHAT IS THIS STRANGE THING YOU SPEAK OF?*

In other news, I got my 31_days updated. Go me~


Feb 7th - "Virtue is the fount whence honour springs" (Murderer: Criminal [Random Scene])


Sweeeeeeeet.

Okay, now to work. *wanders off*
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...

I am SO out of it right now.

And yet I'm sitting here, trying to write this fic so I can actually finish a damn project for once...

As soon as I write and post it, I am crashing so hard.

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I love that song. *points to title* ♥

*CONTINUES TO TRY TO WRITE*


EDIT: FINISHED!

For 31_days:

Feb 5th - "And hold there is no sin but ignorance" (Vampire: Consequences Be What They Bring [Random Scene])
Feb 6th - "The justice of my quarrel" (Vampire: Giveth and Taketh [Random Scene])

*flops over, ded*
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Dear female body,

Go die.

No love,
Me.


*lays around, wishing that she didn't have a uterus*



EDIT: In other news, candy__chan and fyliwionvilyaer have been participating in 31_days. Each day in the month has a corresponding theme and we can only post for the theme of the day it currently is. So far our support system has enabled all three of us to get through the first four days without much problem~

... even though twice I posted like within MINUTES before it was midnight. Ahahahaha. Gg, me.

But yeah, you can find these posts of mine at the following links. I'm using this theme comm as an opportunity to get some of my fanfic series actually WRITTEN more. ... even though I think this theme comm only EXPANDED one of my series. *sighs* Ah well...

Feb 1st - "Who ever loved that loved not at first sight?" (The Longest Night: To Forget [Random Scene])
Feb 2nd - "What feeds me destroys me” (Vampire: Blood and Tears [Random Scene])
Feb 3rd - “Hell hath no limits" (The Longest Night: Suspicions Run Rampant [Random Scene])
Feb 4th - "When all the world dissolves" (Murderer: Showdown At Midnight [Random Scene])

Lolz.

And now I have to sit and ponder this next theme. Hm...