I'm staring at a virtually blank document here.

I hate starting things. It's ridiculously hard. Not only that but I'm a paranoid perfectionist about these sorts of things even thought I KNOW I'll get it done and get a B, most likely. Happens all the time with my English. The only reason it would be different for my French is because I FAIL AT FRENCH GRAMMAR. Srsly, people say English has messed up grammar. Hurhurhur--no.

Also, note to self: Get ducttape.

... not for anything weird. My French dictionary that I got from juneaddams fell apart and... yeah, I glued it together last time it did that, BUT APPARENTLY DRASTIC MEASURES NEED TO BE TAKEN.

And yes, I realize I'm just wasting more time that I can be using to work on my paper writing this post.

NOT TO WORRY. I SLEPT FROM 2PM TO 6:30PM THIS AFTERNOON. I AM READY TO STAY UP THE WHOLE NIGHT IF I HAVE TO.

... good thing I don't have work until 8PM tonight, ahahahaha--orz.

Srsly, I hate starting things.

*just... writes something. anything*


EDIT: I HAVE SOMETHING WRITTEN.

And it fails utterly but oh well~ *keeps going*


EDIT 2: 3AM - The suckiest thing about writing a paper in the middle of the night is that a lot of people aren't awake so I can flail at them and go, "I AM A HORRIBLE STUDENT. WHY DO I PUT THINGS OFF TO THE LAST MINUTE? WHY?" and such.

Ah well.

CHEER UP, DAMN YOU. YOU WROTE A LOOSE-LEAF PAPER'S WORTH OF A PAGE IN LESS THAN AN HOUR. BE PROUD OF YOURSELF. THE FRENCH IS COMING QUICKER TO YOU THAN THE LAST TIME YOU DID THIS. YOU HAVE 6 1/2 HOURS, YOU CAN DO IT. YOSH.

... and now I'm done with the self-motivation for the time being. Dear god I just need to be told I don't fail at life right now. ;o;


EDIT 3: 3:51AM - ... you know. It occurs to me. It's FIVE PAGES. I mean, five pages in English would be a BREEZE to work through, especially with the author I chose to do a quick study on. What a FUN life he lived and such. But the French really slows me down because hurhurhur grammar and conjugations and WHAT'S THE WORD FOR ______ AGAIN? *GRABS FOR DICTIONARY*

Orz.

Thankfully, I'm spending like three paragraphs or so on his life and then the rest on his works. I have 1 1/2 paragraphs written for his life and it already takes up just as many pages. Especially if I leave room for the intro. Hurhurhur.

I am making this so much harder on myself than it needs to be, really.

*wanders off to work on it more*


EDIT 4: 5:31AM - Just need 3 more paragraphs, an Intro, and a Conclusion. That should get me to 5 pages. I just need that much and then speed-do my Works Cited page and gjaghdkjfagj;afeb... 3 1/2 hours CAN SHE DO IT, FOLKS. CRUNCH TIEM IS NAO.


EDIT 5: 6:59AM - 3 more paragraphs (including Intro and Conclusion).

sob.


EDIT 6: 8:42AM - Going to computer lab to print this sucker out. Well, spell check and grammar check too but mostly to print out. Actually have to finish off the conclusion and I MIIIIIIIGHT cheat a bit to get that extra bit of length to my paper--who needs MLA format, anyway? *runs off because her class starts at 9:30AM*
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